My 6 Lovers (J.JK × BTS)

13. Yoongi

This chapter contains the depressed side of yoongi. Pls skip if you don't feel comfortable with this chapter. No hate to Yoongi I love our little meow meow.

Jungkook woke up early then expected so he decided to make all his hyungs some breakfast for when they wake up.

He didn't know why but he was really excited for today.

-Yoongis P.O.V-

I woke up and smelled pancakes? Who the fuck is making pancakes at 6am on a Friday!!!

-3rd person-

But what yoongi didn't know that this wasn't any normal Friday.

-yoongi's P.O.V

so I went downstairs to the kitchen and saw jungkook??? Why is he making pancakes at six in the morning?
'Hey kook, why are you making pancakes at 6 in the morning?'

'well hyung I don't really know I woke up in a good mood and desired to make pancakes' Jungkook said while not looking at me. Probably to just make sure the pancakes don't burn.

Or maybe he dosen't wanna look at you.

'Because I look like a zombie right?'

Pathetic yoongi wake up he dosen't like you these feeling your getting it means nothing to him

'But-' my thoughts were cut off by Jungkook.

-Jungkook's P.O.V-

When I looked back at Yoongi hyung I noticed he was spaced out but had a pained expression on his face so I inturupted his thoughts.

'yoongi hyung, you okay?'
'Hmm yah I'm fine just thinking about stuff'
But our conversation was cut off short when Jin hyung entered the room along with a tired Felix hyung carrying a half asleep Jeongin hyung.

-3rd person P.O.V-

Yoongi didn't feel right. His deppression had come back with a vengeance.

Yoongis own brain was attacking him for the inside out.

He thought his deppression was gone, done and over with. But really it never left.

As the day gone by yoongi was acting more and more different and everyone was now starting to notice.
After all the more he tried to hide it but the others saw right through his lie.

No one said anything about Yoongis behavior how he seemed more run down and sad, fatigued, very smiley, and eating as much. During breakfast he half a pancake and a few strawberries but that was it.

This was only the beginning of the worst month of Yoongis life.

As the weeks past nothing really happened no break in's no surprise visits and nothing from the enemy.

One day on a simple Monday, the start of the week yoongi woke up with no motivation to do anything. He stared at the ceiling while his Brain attacked him again.

"Stupid"

"Useless"

"Better off dead"

"If you died it would make everyone's life easier"

"Look at you laying around while you could achully be doing something with your miserable little life"

"No one has come to check up on you to see if your awake at 1 pm on a Monday. No one cares about you just kill yourself already"

"Kill yourself"

You know the usual. But today felt different. Yoongi was scared of what layed ahead today.

And he was right to be scared

It was Thursday and yoongi was on the verge of tears

He was finnaly fed up of the whole self attack thing so he found the only tiny razor blade he owned brought it to his thigh and started to cut.

The pain helped to block out the pain. But living with 6 other wear wolves plus the extra staying over someone was bound to notice or so Yoongi thought.

It was now 2:36 pm (14:36) and no one has come to wake him up so he got some skin colored band aids and some loose fit pants and slapped (not litterly) them on. He then headed downstairs looking more tired then he usually did.

When he got to the bottom of the stairs he noticed how silent it was so went on a hunt to find anyone to at all.

He searched then house top to bottom but no one was home. So he went to the kitchen to get a glass of water.

Yoongi noticed a sticky note on the island as he was waking to the living room.
It said

Dear Yoongi

We all went out shopping and to get some dinner after. We'll bring you something back.

-Jin and your fellow 12 idiots.

_--_--_--_--_--_Yoongi P.O.V_--_--_--_--_--_-

So they went without me. Who am I kidding of course they did.

I went to go lay on the couch and watch a random documentary about, dolphins? I don't really know I wasn't  paying attention to the documentary. I felt so tired even tho I slept for most of the day already but couldn't fall asleep to my dumb brain.
It went like this for a few more hours untill I looked at my phone and say it was now, 8PM HUH HOW TF DID 7 HOURS PASS BY!?!

You might as well do something with your miserable life

I could make myself dinner since the others are gone, But what to make. I could make something easy, maybe ramen?