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Chapter 2

Sarah's POV*
After a few hours I knew where I was. Everything was so calm and it was nothing like California, it was just amazing.
After I realized where I was, I found my grandmother that passed a few years ago, it was really nice to be with her and have someone I love and know with me while I was alone and passed on into heaven.
But yes, I was and still am very sad.
I never said goodbye to anyone in my family, it was just, I guess, time for me to go.
Yeah, maybe god wanted me to go but I didn't. I was ok with Kian there but if he hurt me or anyone else and I was alive to put him through hell, then I would do it. I'm not just going to let him make our lives hell when it should be him.
As much as it hurts me to say, I still loved Matt and I always will. As much, as I acted like I didn't love him and I acted like a jerk, I was trying to hold my feelings from getting out of control. I mean, I bet a lot of people have felt that way before.
It might seem weird but when you love and miss someone so much do you just want to break down and just cry about it?
Everyday, I feel like this with Matt.
I just want to be with the love of my life & if I had the chance to say " goodbye " the perfect way, then I would.
I hate not being with the one that made my life the way that it is, even though he put me through hell. With him cheating on me and all of that..

( okay listen, if you really want to know what happens then you have to read a few more chapters once I'm done. There's going to be a huge twist and you're going have to remember how Sarah and Matt met in my first Fan fiction, if you don't remember go back to the first few chapters in my first book.
I mean, it's going to get confusing and everything is going to become normal!! )