A day in my life...

Faults

I wish I never did that. You hurt persons without your knowing. Hurting those, who I don't wanna hurt. People who I love.

Why, why did I say this worse things? I bring everything up and made him mad. I love him. How could I do this? But if he love me he should know that? I'm angry, not at him, I'm angry at myself. For being stupid. Sometimes I think it was better when I wasn't born. I can't understand myself. People say depression is a part of me, but I'm a part of the depression.

Smiling on photos. But did you ever see what is behind this picture? Trust no one. You'll get hurt by standing them too near.

"You get me just depressed get out of my way"

This sentence I hear for too much. Am I really that worse? Seems like you don't want me anymore. How many times I just stood there, in the hand a knife, choosing to live or to die. RIP or suffer.

Right now I'm loosing control. I'm loosing the fight to survive. Everyday I get more depressed. I can't help.

But everyday I have some people that shows me amazing things! Let me feel special and loved. Thinking of them let me smile. Every second I worry and think of they're okay. Stand by the side of your friends. They need you. Friends, stay by the side of your lonely friend, cause they need you too. Just give them a hug and they will feel back special.

A special thank to Leon ^^
Yay thank you for cheering me up every time! I'm thankful to met you

I can clearly remember how she said I would get everyone just depressed. I shouldn't share problems with her and her friend.

"I'm always here for you"

That was a damn lie. You have to fight on your own guys. But if someone wants to help you, accept it. Let them help you! It's never too late. Believe in yourself.

Stay strong. I love you all guys.