cover up

acting

before i start let me just say that i have never written anything before and it might be bad so don't judge me. 

hi. I'm Rosalie. I'm 16. my life seems pretty normal. I'm always happy and i never get sad. at least that's what my friends say but that's not the case. i just cover up my feelings. to everyone. my parents, siblings, best friends, everyone!

to everyone i'm the most happy loving person that you will ever meet. but that's just my cover up. i actually feel sad and alone most of the time. its partly my fault and partly other peoples faults. i have friends there fun to hang out with but i usually don't tell them anything. they have never even been to my house and all three of us have been friends for 4 years.

let me tell you a little bit about them. well for starters there's Brittany. shes the quiet one of us. she doesn't talk much. then there's Cassie. shes the one that gets all the guys out of us. and i'm the loud one. im not afraid to speak my mind about anything or anyone. at least that's what my cover up is like. 

my cover up is like that so people don't suspect the way i really am. 

 i wouldn't even call my friends friends. they don't even know anything about me. i mean we hang out a lot. its not their fault that i don't tell them anything. its mine. its always my fault. i think one of the only things that they know about me is that i have 2 really annoying brothers. their 8 and twins. there names are nick and Cody. but i call them it and thing. 

like i said everything is my fault. my parents divorce was my fault. i was the one that told my mom when i was like 4 that my dad had brought another girl over and they we making really loud noises in the bedroom. those we my exact words that i told my mom. 

its my fault is the fact that i don't have any close friends. i have this really big wall that i'm not letting anyone in. its not that i don't trust my friends but i have trust issues. when i was little i trusted my dad and he went and cheated on my mom. and i trusted my old friend but we had a huge fight and she spread every little tiny secret that i told her to everyone at school and on Facebook. so i guess you could say that i have a reason not to trust anyone.

if you're wondering if i'm doing this for attention i'm not. the people that do find out about how i really feel think i'm faking the whole thing because of how happy i usually am. i guess I'm just really good at acting.

authors note: i know i'm not very good so dont judge. i hope you like it. i thought it was OK for my first story and chapter. 

if you have any suggestions on how i could make it better or add to it go ahead and let me know. like i said i'm new to this.  and i'm not the best speller so sorry.