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I was sitting in a chair looking out the ocean with a soft smile feeling the nice breeze go through my hair i turned my head to see bella looking at the water as well but then she walked away i looked back to the water
I did want to see mom i wanted to know that her life was full and satisfying my guess is so i won’t feel as guilty for when i turn
I see Sherlock and Edward talking. I arch a brow and I get down being extra careful and see that Bella walked in and Edward and her walked away probably to go talk . I sigh happily and sit down where she sat “ aren’t you gonna miss this ?” mom asked me i turn my head to her then look away “ can’t you just feel the vitamin D soaking up in your pores “ she says with her eyes closed i bite my lip debating on telling her the truth like this ‘ i don’t know if i like the sun or the heat anymore mom the cold and the no sun is growing on me i like it alot more ‘ i said to her in my head but not wanting to hurt her feelings i actually said “ yeah moma i am gonna miss this the sun does feel nice “ i say with a nod she grabs her drink and i grab mine and take a drink loving the nice cold tea running down my throat ‘ is this how blood is going to be like when i turn ‘ i randomly thought out of the blue i shook my head slightly trying to get rid of it “ you know college's in florida are a lot sunnier “ mom says snapping me out of it i chuckle “ really mom “ i tease her she smiled and took a drink and set it down “ i’m just saying if you and bella go to the University of Alaska i’m never gonna see you my little baby girl “ she says with a sad sigh i put on some sunglasses and look at her with a smile then lean into the chair “ they have a really great science program “ i say with a nod she gives me a look “ you mean Alexander program “ he says i turn my head to her “ the way he watches you it’s like he’s willing to leap in front of you and take a bullet for you “ she jokes with a laugh i turn my head to see he was staring at me i look back to mom “ is that a bad thing mom “ i ask her curious because i’m pretty sure he would take a bullet for me not going to lie “ it’s an intense thing you’re different with him he's move you move like like magnets '' she teases again i laugh and shook my head with a sigh “ i don’t know mom we’re just…” i say while looking at sherlock he smiled to me i smile back “ in love i get it i’ve never seen anything like you and Alexander have not even bella and edward could compare to what you two have but as a mother i just want to make sure you’re making the right choices for yourself you know cause you’re the one that’s gonna have to live with them “ she says i smile at her little speech and nod my head she claps her hands and sits up all the way “ all right enough with the heavy “ she says and boops my nose while getting up and walking away i sit up all the way as well to see was bringing out a present i give her a look “ mom “ i say with a laugh she sets the present down on my lap “ congraduation “ she says all too happily i sigh and shake my head “ i don’t want you to spend any of your money “ i tell her i put my hands on the box “ ah i didn’t come on “ she sits back down i get in a better position and look at her with a smile and we both laugh i open it to see it was a tshirts i look at her and began laughing “ are these all our old trip t-shirts “ i squil happily i hear a Mmm Mmm from her i then take it out and look at it “ get out “ i say happily while looking at it “ i saved them all i thought they’d make a good quilt keep you warm up in alaska “ she says i laughed and read all the names she point to one “ remember this one Ensenada “ she asked me i smile wider near tears “ the snake pit “ i say with a laugh “ yeah “ then we both shared another set of laughter “ but this one is my favorite here “ she says the moves it to show “ the three headed lobster from maine “ she says to me i look at her “ this is amazing mom this is perfect “ i say feeling tears nearly come out she ripped them away “ aw little one i’m very glad you liked it i just figured you know when you get older have kids we can add to it “ she says my heart dropped ‘ how am i going to tell her that i’ve never going to have kids because i’ll never get to have them if i’m with sherlock ‘ i think sadly while hiding it with a smile “ maybe go visit the world’s largest ketchup bottle or something “ she says with a shrug i pull her in a hug she happily hugs me back “ i’m super glad you like it honey “ she says i look over her shoulder while blinking the tears away “ just thought you should have a little piece of me up there in Alaska “ she says i hugged her tighter “ mom “ i say thinking about telling her about me not having kids “ yeah “ she says probably wondering what i’m about to say i think long and hard ‘ no i won’t hurt her like that ‘ i think “ i missed you a lot “ i say softly she hugged me tighter “ oh honey i missed you too “ she says softly i hear the door opening i turn my head to see Sherlock i smile “ hey “ he says with a smile “ wanna go for a walk with me “ he says softly i look at mom she nodded her head and i stand up and walked to him and we began to walk once we got far enough i sit down so that made him as well i look at him and began to smile thinking about our lives together “ dear i can’t read you what are you thinking about “ he says i look up at him “ us “ is all i said and i looked at the ring with a smile and he pulled me closer by my waist the action was out of the blue which caused me to gasp and he took that opportunity to kiss me i jump at the suddenness but i kiss back i lean into it
