Part 1: Breanne
chapter 3
Other than the day after i got my P plates, Erin hadn't even spent any time with me or the girls. Other than when she had to get check ups (which she told Dimitri she was visiting her aunty) she spent the whole time with Dimitri. He lives right next door to me. She couldn't take two seconds out of her busy life to say hi to us.
I got my P's last Tuesday. It is now Monday night and all i want to do is sleep. But no the assignment Erin and I had to do together, was now left to me putting her name on it. I opened my laptop, opened internet explorer, typed in F then went to the first link that came up. Facebook.
It opened in a flash. I started scrolling through my news feed, then changed it to most resent and the first thing that pops up is, Erin is now in a relationship with Dimitri.
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school the next morning was something i had been dreading. Seeing Erin would be awful when all i wanted to do was yell in her face. But it was fine. She could do what she wanted and when it all blew up in her face, we wouldn't be there for her.
I drove into the year 12 car parks and got out of my car. Erin and i had always talked about going together. She was my best friend and always would be. But right now i just didn't want to be around her.
Seeing her all lovey dovey after what i went through. It was 4 months ago but it still feels like it was yesterday. Everything hurt so much.
I walked through the doors and and sat down at our spot. No one else was there yet. This was not good. I didn't want to be thinking about all of my problems again. It just made everything seem worse.
All my classes for today were with Erin and Dimitri, leaving me wanting to just leave now. Why couldn't my life have just gone right. Why couldn't everything have happened different. I wish he was still here.
Jacinta came running through the doors, some of her things falling on the floor. Tears streaming down her face.
I stood up and she jumped into my arms, we fell into a heap on the floor.
"Cinta, babe!" I pulled her away from me so i could see her face. "What's wrong?"
"It's Erin, she's been sent to hospital, she fainted when she got up this morning. We can't be loosing her already."
It had only been 4 months since she had been diagnosed, she couldn't already be that far along. Shaelyn, Madi and Caitlyn came storming in, ready to take on anyone. I stood up, Cinta still clinging to me.
"I'll drive"i said and walked out of school and back to my car.
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We got to the hospital and to Erin's room. She was sitting on the bed, in clothes and looked like nothing had happened. Well except for the big welt on her head. It had started to bruise but it didn't look too bad.
"What happened", I demanded as I strode into her room leaving the other girls in the doorway gob smacked.
"I just got dizzy when i stood up this morning"
"It was obviously more than that because you passed out. Look at the bump on your head, it's just getting blacker and blacker" she knew when these things were going to happen why didn't she just sit down? I wanted to scream at her, i wanted to demand she tell me why she had been stupid enough to think she could use shear will power and think it would mean she wouldn't faint. What was she thinking?
"Lay off alright, and for gods sake don't tell Dimitri. He doesn't even know about the cancer, no one does and it is going to stay that way"
"You can't expect him to believe you're constantly at your at some family members house. You'll have to tell him eventually." Shaelyn said. She looked confused and angry at the same time.
"No he isn't going to find out, not until i die then you're welcome to tell him."
"That's just wrong and selfish and you know it. You can't string him along like that and expect him to be ok" i was practically yelling at her now.
"So what if i want to be selfish for once! It's my life, not yours, you can't tell me what to do"
"Erin" i yelled at her making her jump a little. "If you don't tell that poor boy i will" and that's when I snapped. I got halfway through the door, pushing brought a sobbing Cinta and a confused Madi.
"Just because you're jealous of my relationship, just because your boyfriend died in a car accident, Dimitri isn't Robby. You have no right to say anything to him. It's none of your business." She had gone too far.
"Well guess what Erin, you have no right to even think about ever talking to me, because my life is no longer any of your business. Fall into deep dark whole and never crawl back out, you stupid ugly bitch. I hope you know you're rotting from the inside out. Soon Dimitri probably won't even want you" that was probably been a bit much but boy was i mad.
I had slowly been edging back towards her and i was obviously in distance because she stood up and slapped me across the cheek.
That was the last straw, I practically snarled at her before turning around.
"Who's coming back to school with me? I tell you now there is no busses that come out here so it's either me or try to squeeze in with her parents.
Shaelyn and Caitlin walk out of the room with me after saying their goodbyes. At the moment I would be happy to never see Erin's face again.
It takes twenty minutes to get back to school from the hospital, i was not looking forward to the ride home.
Shaelyn opened her mouth to talk but i didn't even let her start.
"She had absolutely no right to bring up Robby. It had nothing to do with our conversation. It was like ripping out freshly sown stitches. I'd already been having trouble, she knew that. Then she went ahead and brought it up with absolutely no relevance to the topic. I hope she fucking rots in a hole." This was so bad it had me swearing.
"You're only mad now because its a fresh wound but everything eventually heals and she may not realise it but she needs all of us, so you're just going to have to swallow your pride and get over it."
"No and if you want to keep talking about it then you can just walk the rest of the home."
I pulled into the other lane and turned the car off.
"What's it going to be?" I demanded.
She climbed out of the car, Caitlin soon following. It was about an hour walk from here but i didn't care. I was so angry I could probably kill someone with just one look.
My tired screeched as my car peeled away from them. Have a good walk.
I didn't even bother going to school. I went straight home and went to my room, locking myself in there. At this point in time I was happy to never talk to any of them again. They could all rot in hell for all I cared.
Authors notes
Not great i know but i had the worst writers block so yeah. Sorry it took so long to upload it hope people read it :D thanks for sticking around
Xoxo Alex
