why me? (Avril Lavigne X Reader GxG)

im just getting started.

y/ns POV:
it has been 7 years of being tormented at school every single day by the same girl.

Avril Lavigne.

to the world she's known as a "punk princess". 
but to me?

she's nothing but a cold hearted bitch.

she started bullying me in grade 3. were both in grade 10 right now.

it all started when i accidentally sat at her lunch table in grade 3.

*flashback*
"hi im y/n, and you are?" i say grinning. "Avril. Avril Lavigne. and i own this school. and one day the whole world will know my name." she said staring me in the eyes. "ok..." i gave her an awkward stare and whistle, walking away.
only to fall onto my cup of chocolate pudding, after Avril tripped me. "hahaha look everyone. the new kid fell face first in dog shit" Avril said laughing and pointing at me.
i ran to the bathroom crying, washing the pudding off of my face. "why would she do that to me? i just wanted to be friends." i said out loud. sighing.
*end of flashback*

i still think about that moment every single day.
it didnt help that my dad passed away a couple of days before all of that happened.

he was my best friend. i could rely on him for anything and he'd be there. but i didnt have him there to tell him what Avril did to me that day. i still have no one. at school, im known as the "dog shit lover".
i shouldnt say i have no one.
i do have one person.
their name is Kye, Kye Garrett.
they're genderfluid, they've been out for a while.
they have been there for be since the day avril did all of that stuff. but i don't really see them much anymore, they got married and moved to the UK and we only facetime now :(.
anyways. it's time to go to school.

*at school*
"HEY DOG SHIT LOVER".
oh great.
It's Avril.
"what do you want Lavigne?" i said sighing
she pushed me into a locker, holding my head there with her hands.
she came close to my ear and whispered
"how many times have i told you. do not call me Lavigne. understood y/n".
she doesn't know this, and i'd never admit it to her. but she kind of turns me on when she does this. i think she has caught on to it a little bit, cuz now she does it every morning.
"understood avril. are you done yet?"
"no y/n. im just getting started."
she said letting go of my head aggressively.
i gave her a dirty look, as she flipped me off walking away.

Avrils Pov:

my names avril lavigne, and i'm the coolest kid in school.
though i don't like it that way.
i don't wanna be known as the girl who is mean to y/n just because i'm insecure.

yeah you heard me right. i'm insecure.
not insecure about my looks, no.
but insecure because i know y/n can have any girl in this school. but she'll never pick me, maybe cuz i'm not pretty enough? how would i even know. i've never actually gained up the courage to just ask her.
wait... that's just it.
i haven't gained up the courage to ask her because i'm so mean to her, she doesn't want me because i'm mean. not because i'm ugly.
you know what. starting tomorrow... i'm gonna find some sort of way to make it all up to her. but how...? how am i gonna make up for 7 years of emotional and physical abuse? i've just gotta figure it out.
im really gonna have to think about it. how...?