My Hatred For You

4| him

this is probably gonna need major editing, hope your having a good day :)

TW: Sexual assault, Self harm

9 years ago

Nyx's POV: 

"Nyx. Nyx! Wake up!"

I wake up to one of the older girls here shaking me awake. 

"What is so urgent?" I ask her 

"He wants to see you."  she says with dread.

I start crying. I really don't want to go see him. He's the one that hurts me a lot. He usually beats me, because I cried when his men raped me. 

I've been stuck here for 2 years, since my mother sold me to them on my 7th birthday. I've lost count of how many times they have assaulted me. Sometimes I wish I could just die. 

"Please Gina don't make me go. They keep hurting me." I plead with her, trying to get her to help me. 

"I'm so sorry Nyx, you know I can't do anything. If I help you they'll kill me."

"I know, I'm sorry Gina."

If only she could help me.

"Come on." she helps me up and brings me out of the room and down to the office I know, and hate so much. 

She knocks, then opens the door and we walk inside. Dread fills my body as I see some of his closet men also in the room. 

"Nyx, darling come here, come sit down on my lap."

I keep my head down as I walk over and sit on his lap. 

"You look beautiful, I want to take you right on this desk in front of all of those men."

I want to puke at his words. Feeling disgusted of all the memories I have of us. 

All of his men snicker, I'm they're favorite girl. They claim it's because I'm beautiful, and because they paid the most money for me. 

"Everyone out!" he shouts, and everyone leaves. 

"Now do you want to explain why you weren't cooperating with Gina? She said that you were pleading with her to help you escape."

My eyes go wide. 

That little back stabbing bitch. I thought we were friends. What a fucking cunt.

I shake my head no.

"I'm sorry, it won't happen again." I tell him.

"Oh I'll make sure it won't happen again."

He tearing at me clothes crying to get them off. 

"NO! NO! LEAVE ME ALONE. I'M SORRY. PLEASE!" I try to please with him. But he just rips off my pants and stares at my naked body hungrily. 

I am sobbing still pleading with him to stop. "Shut up whore, if you want to act like a little bitch I will put you in your place." 

He starts unbuckling his belt and I start sobbing again. Not saying anything though in fear of making this already awful situation worse. 

He pulls his pants down and I'm still crying. He painfully thrusts into me and I scream "Stop! GET OFF OF ME! IT HRUTS!"

He ignores me and keeps going getting his sick pleasure out of my pain. I drift off trying to block out what is happening. After awhile he finally leaves and I continue crying. 

I wish mama never sold me. I wish mama never did drugs. I wish papa had kept me. 

present time