Wolvesblood

Journal #4

Katie POV-----------

The pain it’s all that I know, with the pain spreading from my neck to the rest of my body, changing me into the one and only thing that I fear. A Werewolf. It can’t be happening because if it is I know for sure that I’ll never be welcomed back a home.

I hear someone bones cracking and rearranging and screaming out in so much pain. My mind has tried to block out the pain by making my mind leave my body. I look down upon myself and see the broken bones at weird angles and I can hear her screaming. I don’t feel the pain but I know that I’m screaming. I float on a haze not knowing what to do. Should I go back to my body and feel the torture that is going through my body or leave and let my body die and float in the Dazwischen (in between) never settling down and dying completely.

I think that thought through for about 10 seconds when I decide to go to my living hell of my body that is controlled at the moment of the pain of my first shift.

Jared POV ---------------

I can’t think of anything else except my mate, which is withering in pain on my bed. I had the change her but that doesn’t always end well. I knew that with her heart rate dropping so low that if I hadn’t have tried to save her that she would be dead right now. I can hear her heart laboring trying to get her through the change but it’s on the brink of exhaustion.

I hear my beta trying to get me away from her but I can’t leave her. She’s in so much pain and I can’t help myself but to beat myself up because I’m the one to cause the pain that she is feeling.

Her body arches and shifts as the venom courses through her veins. Turning all of her cells from human to wolf.  I have always heard and felt that the first change is the worst but I wonder what it feels like to one’s body that was never meant be like mine, so I could torture myself for making her go through this.

I sit by her side knowing that the pain would be worse if I’m not beside her, because I am her mate and it takes some of the pain away.

Katie POV ------------

As I enter my body it finally decides to shift into a beautiful white wolf with a weird black mark on her forehead.  I shake my head and growl when I realize that there is someone beside me that I don’t know. It takes me all of 5 seconds to realize that I just growled at my mate the Alpha.

The next thing I know is that I’m being held by my neck to show submission to the Alpha even though I’m the Luna of the Silvermoon pack by default.

It’s all too much to taken in less than a day so I do the only reasonable thing I can think of doing.

I run.