THE GUY NEXT DOOR {Ongoing}

{15}~ Him

Heyy bishesss<3

I know some of you are eager for smut but I can't just jump right into it. But it will come i promise<3

This chapter almost made me cry:(

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

Events in this chapter may be upsetting to some readers.

Some triggering things may include:

Self-harm
Blood
Self-deprecation
Trauma from past
Emotional breakdown
Anxiety
Panic attacks

Buckle up, babies<3

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Recap

Then we hear shots coming from downstairs.

We look at each other wide-eyed.

He grabs my hand and carries me over to the bathroom. "Stay in here, keep the door locked at all times".

"Bruce what if you get hurt?" I ask. "I won't, stay here". He rushes out of the bathroom and I lock the door behind him as he ordered.

What if something happens to him?

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I'm hiding in the corner of the bathroom scared for my life. I can't help but think about what if something happened to him?

What if he left me like everyone else?

What if he left me like him? He said I wasn't good enough. The things he'd say to me. The things he'd do to me. He said I was nothing.

Bruce isn't like him is he?

Please don't be like him.

I feel my chest closing on me. It started getting harder to breathe. I feel like I'm suffocating. I need my medication.

Every time I think about him, my panic attacks kick in. He's the reason I have sleepless nights. The reason why I'm scared to open up to anyone.

He's the reason why I have those cuts on my inner thighs and wrists. The reason why I wear hoodies and sweatpants all the time.

Yeah, I look at myself in the mirror saying 'I look hot as fuck' sometimes but I think I just say that to convince myself of something I'm not.

I cover my scars with makeup all the time. Only Cherry has seen them. She's seen every ugly part of me.

I won't ever open up to anyone about my past. I'll never show anyone my ugly side.