I can talk about it but I never experienced it
I know the hardships and work people put into a relationship
Yet I never been in a relationship myself
I believe in love yet I don't at the same time
I believe love exists just not for me
Liking or loving someone romantically is like a unknown extinct language
Or maybe I'm confused
Is what I'm feeling platonic or romantic?
Are you just one of my close friends or are you something more?
Why do I get jealous when you're talking to someone else?
I can't tell if it's because I like you or because I'm scared I'll lose my best friend
I'm scared you'll replace me
You'll replace me with someone better until you forget my existence
I'll only be in your distant lost memories
The only Love I ever known is from family and friends
Love can come easily for some people
But not me
Maybe my expectations are to high
Or maybe it's because I don't want to mistaken my feelings to be love
I want to be sure you're the one I want
I don't want to confuse you by leading you on
Cause I know how painful that can feel
Knowing you can never have the person you truly want
So even if I'm lonely I'll wait
I'll wait for the one that I have genuine feelings for
The one that makes me feel at home
The person whose voice makes me forget all my problems
The one that lets me cry in their arms and doesn't question why because they know how hard it is to talk about
The one who holds me close and tells me I'll be alright and that I'm enough
And the one that stays at my highest and even lowest
So future lover I'll wait
But does such a person even exist?
Will I ever meet them?
Time is the only one that holds the answers
Lets just hope I don't run out of time
Written by Ace
