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Sidharth stood in front of her with a serious look and she didn't had the courage to meet her eyes with his. She kept looking at her lap when he spoke-
"Are you alright?" He asked sternly but she still could feel his concern for her.
"Hmm..." She just hummed looking down.
"Mai aaj jaa rha hu wapis". He said when her heart felt a sudden pain. She knew this was gonna happen. Didn't I wanted the same? She asked herself.
"Tum to khush hogi... Jaisa tu chah rhi hai waisa hi ho rha haina..." She looked at his face hearing his sarcastic tone.
"Let's come to the bloody point... Tune kis hisaab se bola ke shaadi nhi hogi?" He asked a bit loudly. "Ye tera akele ka decision nhi hai Shehnaaz. Sab kuch tere hisaab se nhi hone waala hai har baar. Tum apne gharwaalo ko apne isharo pe nacha sakti ho par mujhe nahi... Tu kuch bhi befaltu bolegi aur tere gharwaale usse poora karenge but don't expect me to do that shit". He raised his voice making her flinch.
"Did I asked you to come into my life? Huh?" He asked moving closer to her. "Maine bola tha tujhe apne Vicky bhaiyya ke shaadi mein meri mummy ko patane ke liye? Uske baad tujhe pata hai kitna torture kiya unhone mujhe teri wajah se? Finally I gave in... I admit ki Unke zid ki wajah se hi mai Punjab aaya tha. Pehle se soch kar aaya tha ke ladki koi bhi ho uske muh par Naa bolke aa jaunga wapis. Par nhi kar paya... Kyunki tujhe dekhte hi attachment ho gyi". He said pacing back and forth of the room. Tears were rolling down from her eyes listening to him.
"Teri har ek baat se farak padne laga mujhe.... Itna protective mai life mein Kisi ke liye nhi hua hu... Teri har chotti chotti zid poora karne laga mai. Maine apni bhatiji ko kabhi itna pamper nhi kiya jitna tujhe Kiya... And tune uss din sahi bola, Jab teri bimari ke baare mein uncle ne pehli baar bataya to tujh pe sympathy nhi aayi mujhe... I was shocked ke koi itne acche se apne dard kaise cover up kar sakta hai, koi itna strong kaise ho sakta hai? I started respecting you more, I started caring you more, I started worrying for you more. Gussa aata tha mujhe jab tu apna khayaal nhi rakhti thi, jab tu bakwaas karti thi ke tu boj hai, ye wo.... Kaise soch sakti hai aisa tu?".
"I've become a freaking insecure soul. Aur iski wajah sirf tu hai...". Sidharth said pointing his index finger on her.
"Kyu hai tu itni perfect? Huh? Uss party mein pata hai kitna Ganda feel ho rha tha mereko? Jab log tereko aise taad rhe the... I swear I wanted to ripp their heads off. Har minute koi mereko aihasaas dila rha tha ke I'm not good enough for you. Waha tereko sab bhar bhar ke attention de rhe the aur yaha Mera khoon khol rha tha... And Tera wo so-called crush. Tum logo ne koi plan banaya tha kya ke tu uske baare mein mujhe bolegi aur ussi time wo waha tapak padega... I have never felt so insecure in my life. Teri life dekh ke mereko laga ke it's not gonna work. Mai nhi deserve karta tujhe... Aur jab wo teri friend Ahaana ki baatein suni na, then mere se control hi nhi hua. I thought ke tu mere saath khush nhi rahegi... Par tune to theka le rakha haina mere saare bhram todne ki. Jab mai gussa tha to tu aayi... Meri saari misunderstanding clear ki tune. Kyu ki? Kyu bola wo sab jab akhir mein you wanted to fuck things up like this? Mai reh leta na apni insecurities ke saath. Par waha bhi tereko footage leni thi".
He paused for a second to look at her and saw her face drenched in tears.
"Abhi ye aansu dekh kar na, mujhe khud pe gussa aa rha hai, ke mai rula rha hu tujhe... Par mai bolunga... Tu kya samjhti kya hai apne aap ko? Tu jo bolegi wohi hoga? Mere opinion matter nhi karta kya? Aur tu kya apne aap ko badi smart samjhti hai? To suno... Nhi hai tu smart. Tu sabse badi duffer hai. Gadhi kahiki... Maine bola tha na mummy ki wajah se nhi reh Raha hu mai tere saath. Ek baar mein samajh nhi aata kya? Chhaathi pe likhke ghoomu ab? I know mai apni feelings ko lekar zyada vocal nhi hu lekin tujhe abhi tak meri feelings samjh mein nhi aayi? Thoda bohot to express kiya haina maine?" She nodded negatively with a cute pout.
"Nhi ki...? Accha to suno... Aaj koi kasar nhi chodunga tujhe wrong prove karne ke liye". He said and bend a little placing his hands on her bed, looking straight into her eyes.
"You were wrong ke tu selfish hai.... Maine dekha hai Tu kaise humesha khud se pehle doosro ko rakhti hai. Teri family tere liye pareshan na ho, isiliye tu apne dard unse chupathi hai... Unko aise teri wajah se dukhi dekh kar tu kitna guilty feel karti hai ye bhi maine dekha hai... Aur apni khushi bhul kar iss shaadi ke liye tune mana Kiya taaki mai teri wajah se pareshan na hu, agar in sab ko selfish bolte hai to I don't know ke selfless kya hota hai.
You were wrong ke tu meri zindagi barbaad kar rhi hai... Koi boj woj nhi tu mere liye, tera khayaal rakhna Mera haq hai, tere kapde choose karna Mera haq hai, tere ko dawai Dena, pamper karna, daantna ye bhi Mera haq hai. Tereko hug karna, kiss karna, logo ke saamne haath pakad kar bolna ke She is mine- ye sab sirf Mera haq hai...
You were wrong ke mai mummy ki wajah se iss rishte ke liye Maan gya... Agar aise hota to mai Mumbai se hi haa bol deta shaadi ke liye. The only reason I'm standing here today is YOU. Itna sab kuch bol diya phir bhi tereko samajh nhi aa rha ke I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU, you idiot!" Sana felt butterflies in her stomach hearing to this.
"Kahi ka nhi choda yaar tune mujhe... Pagal kar rakha hai... I feel like a fuckin' teenager at this age. Tere Instagram check karna... Uske comments dekh kar jalna, teri chotti chotti harkatein notice karne, tereko jab koi dekhta hai to jal bhun jaana, tujhe apne age ke kisi ladke ke saath dekhke insecure hone, Darr lagna ke what if you think I'm not good enough, what if you leave me for someone else... Aisa kabhi kisi aur ke liye feel nhi kiya hai maine... But tereko to iss sab se farak nhi padta na... Saare feelings tere hi hai. Mera to kuch hai hi nahi". He said turning around pulling his hair in frustration. Sana was sitting at the bed smiling and blushing like hell with tears, hearing his scolds.
"You were wrong... You were fucking wrong about me Shehnaaz Kaur Gill. Ab mujhe Jo bolna tha wo maine bol diya... Lekin tereko isse kya? Aakhir mein to tujhe apni marzi hi chalani hoti haina, mai kon hota hu bolna waala kuch... Ab tu jo kahegi wo hi hoga... Tera Jo bhi desicion hai apne gharwaalo ko bol de... Mai chup chap man lunga..." Saying this he stormed out of the room leaving a red tomato behind.
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Sana sobbed smilingly when Rita pulled her into a tight hug. She also giggled along with Sana and wiped her tears. She broke the hug and turned to Santhokh-
"Suna nhi kya bhaisaab... Ab sagai wagai gyi bhaad mein... Ab jaldi se shaadi ki taareek nikaalo aap. Mera beta chup chap Maan lega". She said as Sana blushed again.
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Fanfictionstory by: @with_love_Anu💯 Sidharth Shukla, the arrogant, aggressive, and daring police officer meets Shehnaaz Kaur Gill, the bubbly, witty, chatterbox. And soon, the girl his mother has chosen for him for arranged marriage becomes his everything. S...
