If Only

Episode 8 19:20 - 22:06 continued

Dr Kang had asked him about his personal feelings towards her and he vehemently denied it. After she left the makeshift infirmary where Young Ro was resting, he did something without realizing it, he slipped into the room and closed the door. He told Dr Kang to stay at the main hall with the other hostages in case anyone acts up and told his comandres he was going to get some rest.

Soo Ho's heart pained seeing the ever-energetic and passionate Young Ro looking so fragile and tired.

I'm sorry, it's all my fault. Soo Ho thought as he watched over her sleeping, curled up, shivering due to the cold. He sighed at how his desire to see her for the last time, to ensure her safety only made it detrimental to her and everyone else at the dormitory. How a short glance of her turned into a hostage situation.

"Can we meet again?" Young Ro had asked him, he remembered her upset expression the night before the open house.

"If I hadn't picked up the paper airplane." Soo Ho felt his heartache whenever she spoke to him cause he could hear the anger in her voice and he knew how vexed she was, how hurt and upset she was. Now not only was she in a hostage situation but her brother was killed in a mission during his duty which caused her to faint shock.

"If I hadn't met you in the first place......." He knew very well it was due to the deal made by the higher-ups that were causing them to be embroiled in this web. How many more lives did they have to put at risk and how many innocent lives were they willing to take, he was scared to even ask that question. To them, they were simply collateral damage for their 'revolutionary' mission.

Without realizing he was standing beside her, she was sound asleep, her face looked so sweet and loving. He reached out and caressed her cheeks with his fingertips, pushing her hair back from her forehead. He looked at her, desperate to pull her into his arms and let all the nightmares of the reality they were in melt away.

He grabbed a chair and placed it beside her bed, taking a seat, putting the riffle down as gently as he could before hesitantly taking her hand into his. He whispered only for her to hear, slowly as if each word inflicted immense pain "If I had been an ordinary man......."

He clasped her hand both of his as if he was praying, he probably was. Praying that she forgave him. Praying they got out of this situation alive. Praying that he could love her despite everything. He did not realize he was crying till he felt droplets fall onto their hands, he wiped his tears and gently laid his head on the edge of the bed still holding onto Young Ro's hand. "If I had been an ordinary man......."

Peaceful sleep engulfed him as he held on tightly to her hands as if her hands were his only lifeline.

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"Do you want to have dinner with me tomorrow?" Soo Ho hesitantly asked Young Ro, he wanted her to desperately pick his paper plane during their blind date but her friend seemed snatched it before his eyes. Somehow he managed to decline her offer and run into Young Ro and he was not going to let this opportunity go.

"Sure, I would like that." Young Ro replied, suppressing her smile.

"I'll walk you to your dormitory." Soo Ho offered, oblivious to the fact that walked past a wedding dress shop, both of them felt giddy and bashful. Smiling at each other and stealing glances.

After their dinner the next day, Young Ro invited Soo Ho to their university's open house which he happily accepted, even promising to keep Gwang Tae away from her roommate.

Soo Ho arrived at the open house, wearing a simple navy blue suit. He waited in front of the entrance. Young Ro told him to meet her at the entrance at 3 pm he was too excited and arrived half an hour early. He assumed Young Ro would meet him exactly at 3 pm but as if she was reading his mind, she too was walking down the stairs towards him. He gasped, she looked heavenly. Wearing a baby pink dress with her hair flowing down, framing her beautiful face. She looked absolutely stunning. Despite the cold and the snow, he felt hot and flushed.