Come Back Again (Book 2 of Come Back To Me)

Chapter 5

After Namjoon managed to get YN calmed down, he brought her back inside to rest on the couch as this attack was quite longer than they normally would've lasted and she got a little drained.
It was then Yoongi had made his way into the living room, offering to go and get Chanyeol from the school so YN could continue to rest and Namjoon and Hobi could look after her.
"When did these panic attacks start? I don't remember ever having them..." Hobi questions as he looks up to Namjoon with a worried look in his eyes.
"After your last memory spelll..." Namjoon sighs as he walks into the kitchen and leaning onto the counter. "When you left to stay with your sister. That night, she had the first one."
"Why haven't I been told?" Hobi asks with confusion.
"You have been, multiple times." Namjoon says not turning to face him.
"It's not written down in any of my notes...." Hobi says trailing off, more questioning himself than he was Namjoon.
Namjoon knew what he wanted to say but he kept his mouth shut.
"Its true Hoseok...." Namjoon sighs again as he turns back to face his friend. "Its why she constantly has me or Yoongi at her side."
"Is that why she has developed the high blood pressure? Through all these panic attacks."
"Yes." Namjoon says simply.
"I am stressing her out to the point she's having panic attacks?" Hobi asks quietly looking down from Namjoon, wondering if he would answer the question truthfully.
"Yes." Namjoon says simply again.
"I see." Hobi says as he stands to his feet and shoves his hands in his pockets. "So if I stay here, I stress her out, if I leave I stress her out, so what do I do to make it easier on her? Let you finally step in, like you want?"
"Hoseok, watch it. You know this isn't helpful either."
"What would you have me do Namjoon?" Hobi hisses angrily as he walks closer to him, and looking back to YN to see her still peacefully sleeping on the couch behind him.
"Everyday I wake up and I forget who I am, I forget where I am. I dont know her or my own child half the time, and sometimes I dont even know you or the guys. Every day I have to relearn everything while trying to keep her comfortable and stress free, while rasing a son I barely know. Trusting the one person in the world to look after her and care for her, and you take advantage of the situation for your own benefit."
"How Hoseok, explain to me how I have used this situation for my benefit? Just as you've stated, I cared for her when you left for six long years, and raised your child, the child that called me Appa first, but had to explain a dozen times over that I am his Uncle and not his Appa. I have held your wife more times than anyone can count, as she's cried for you, begged for you, and grown tired of you, and you tell me I am using this to my advantage?" Namjoon says angrily as he balls his fist by his side.
"You weren't supposed to fall for her!" Hobi shouts slightly now.
"I already fell for her back when we were kids, Hoseok! And you knew this, and still you made your move anyways."
"Come on Joon, we were kids back then, this is different now...."
"Is it really different?" Namjoon huffs as he walks by Hobi who grabs him by the arm and spins him around.
"It is different, the situation is far more diffrerent than some dumb crush you had back in high school. She's my wife, not some prize for you to conquer while I can't remember."

It was then that Namjoon couldn't hold it in any longer and a part of him finally snapped as his fist made full contact with Hobi's jaw.
Hobi was stunned as he fell back slightly, and looked over to Namjoon with a grin on his face.
"There do you feel better now?" Hobi laughs as he pops his jaw and stands straight up, readying himself for the oncoming punches. He didn't want to fight him, but he knew this had been building up for far too long.

It was then that Jin made his way into the living and immediatly bolted to stand between the pair of them as he held his hands out to stop each of them from approaching one another.
"What is going on here?" he asks angrily, looking to each of his brothers with disappointment of the behavior the two of them exhibiting in front of a pregnant women sleeping on their couch that had just suffered a severe panic attack. "Grow up the two of you. Namjoon, you love YN, its clear we all see it. So do the mature thing and be her support system when her and Chanyeol need you, as we have all agreed. And you Hoseok, you are a husband and father, your wife is expecting again, time to take a little responsibilty and figure things out to help you all get through this together."
"So you are all in this together?" Hobi says with a scoff.
"That's enough Hoseok." came Yoongi's voice from behind them now, he had Chanyeol's ears covered and was motioning for Taehyung to come over and grab him. "Take him upstairs and get his reading started with Jungkook, I will send YN up after him."
Taehyung nodded as he took Chanyeol's hand and looked down to him with a smile. "Come on Channie, let's go read to Uncle Kook."
"Okay!" Chanyeol nodded as he went with Taehyung happily.

"I offer a solution..." Yoongi says as he walks over to stand by Jin who was still holding the other two guys apart by his arms lenght. "Namjoon you back off of YN, and I will take on caring for her for awhile."
"No." Namjoon says shaking his head. "We've already changed the routines so much since moving in together, and we just got Chanyeol used to a good routine for some time now, I won't change it again."
"Is Chanyeol really what you are upset about, or is it my wife you are upset about?" Hobi asks as he crosses his arms over his chest.
It was then Namjoon made a step towards Hobi again, but this time Yoongi was quicker to move than Jin and he shoved him back until he was almost pinned against the wall.
"I will take over for awhile Namjoon, you either accept it peacefully or we can go outside and talk about it, its your call." Yoongi says to him with gritted teeth.
"Fine." Namjoon says with defeat as he shoves Yoongi off of him and turning to leave the room.
"I'll go and talk to him." Jin says with a sigh as he turns to follow Namjoon up the stairs.

*Flashback*

"Namjoon..." a teenage YN says one day while they are sitting at their usual morning meet up spot waiting for Hobi to show up, he always ran behind most mornings so Namjoon would use these rare alone moments with her for his advantage. Hoping one day he could build up the confidence to finally tell her before things got busy with being an idol trainee.
"Yes, what is it?" he says looking over to her with a smile across his face.
"Do you think we will always be together?" she looks up at him with a curious expression.
"What do you mean?"
"I just mean, you and Hoseok are about to start your trainee process, and then after you debut, you guys are gonna be busy all the time. That lifestyle, doesnt really accomadate for normal people like me." she shrugs as she looks away from him.
"Are you saying that once we become idols we won't want you as a friend anymore?"
YN didn't answer, instead she just quitely stared off into the direction of where Hobi would soon be walking from when he finally decided to arrive.
The expression on her face as she got lost into her worrisome thoughts were enough of an answer for Namjoon, and he scooted closer to her and pulled her closer to him as she smiled and leaned her head on his shoulder.
"I know its selfish to be worried about you guys leaving me behind, I know eventually we will have our own lives, our own paths, but you two are all I have. I know I have your sisters, but I am not as close with them as I am you two." she says quietly, trying to hide the breaking in her voice.
"Its not selfish, I understand your fear. A lot of people lose friendships along the way in the idol world, but I can promise you, that we will not leave you behind. You will be right there with us, you will see everything with us, and you will always be apart of us. I promise. And if anything you will always have me." he says with a chuckle as he playfully nudges her side.
"I couldn't imagine my life without you in it, Joon." she smiles back at him as she nudges him back.

*End flashback*

"I made a promise to her Jin, I can't just take it back now." Namjoon sighs as he sits down on the edge of his bed.
"A promise you have more than fullfilled over the years, Joon." Jin says as he places a firm hand on his shoulder. "You are bluring the lines between platonic love and romantical love."
"The lines were never blured hyung, I know my boundaries."
"You sure about that? Even Hoseok is starting to notice, even in his memory spells. He's made notes about it and talked with me and Yoongi about it."
Namjoon burried his face in his hands to hide his next expression from Jin. Embarassed and tired of fighting for countless years what he had truly felt on the inside about everything. Carrying the guilt around of loving his best friend's wife and being jealous of living in his shadow for their whole lives.
"Its time Joon, to step back and let her go. For the sake of your own sound mind. Otherwise, this is going to consume you, and you are going to lose more than just friendships in all of this." Jin sighs as he hugs his brother in comfort. "It will be hard, but after some time it will get easier, and you can re approach this from a fresh point of view, and maybe be her friend once again."
Namjoon didn't answer, but he knew Jin was right. He knew he had to walk away for the better.
He just wasn't sure if he was going to be able to bring himself to go through with it.....