➪WINTER IS HOT || WINRINA

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was she really doing it? obviously contemplating her life decisions was something she didn't want to do while sitting on the couch with the TV playing and ningning's radio playing in the background.

karina stared at the booklet and pen on the table, feeling mocked at how it laid there undisturbed. she had her knees close to her chest on the couch, chin on top as she contemplated her life desicions that led to this moment.

"am I really doing this? " she asked herself, eyes tearing away from the booklet and back to the TV. there wasn't anything wrong with it. she knew plenty of people still keep diaries or journals. she meant, jaemin used to drag her to the library so that they would ready diary of a wimpy kid. "and jaemin even has his own diary or journal but he doesn't share it to us. secrecy is the key but I have those idiots as my best friend"

the last thing she needed was someone discovering her diary and reading it out loud. they were in high school but that didn't mean it wasn't possible. they just entered high school. moreover, if that someone ended up being yeonjun then it would be the death of her.

she let her feet touch the ground, leaning forward for the center table before snatching the booklet and pen, opening the pen and flipping the booklet open on the second page. she tapped her pen on her lips. what should she right?

it shouldn't be that hard, right? she just has to be honest with her feelings which she wasn't even sure, and who said this diary is completely for winter? it can be about her day and shit.

"I know " she could write about her day today. yeah. that would be a good starter. she got off the couch, sitting criss-crossed on the floor and started scribbling in the word handwriting she could muster.

entry no. 1

dear diary.... actually journal (because I am a high school student and I feel like diary is makes me sound like a child)

today was fun. it was normal. going to school, witnessing my classmates rough housing and seeing jaemin fail to convey his obvious feelings to a dense jeno (is the dog blind or did he ignore it? I do not know). but other than that, yeonjun managed to get himself stuck in a drum, beomgyu ended up getting (not so) accidentally puched by taehyun from section one, hyunjin had a screaming fest which ended up in hair pulling with sunoo (I pray for hyunjin's hair with all the pulling it has gone through), xiaojun was talking with hendery and the donkey was over the moon by it, jungwon was commentating the fight between hyunjin and sunoo, and donghyuck brought renjun to watch while started a round two with them.

writing this made me realize how chaotic we are. I'm surprised the CAT officers didn't sanction us with all our noise. then again, we always found away to get out of punishments (read: tell Mr. heechul). it was bad but at least we have a clean record.

then in the council, Winter always stood close to my side and as much as I was over the moon and sun for it, I also dreaded it the same way jaemin dreaded doing math. I had to stop myself from being a mess.

winter kept on talking, laughing, touching my arm every time she did laugh. jaemin wasn't there so I had to fend for myself. and as much as I want to run away and leave winter  maybe find solace in school paper room, no one was going to be with her who she was familiar and she would be sad.

fuck me for being a simp because I don't want winter sad. grrr if it was possible I would put an angry emoji hear but I realized I am writing this down. I'll probably find a sticker notebook with emojis. maybe jaemin has them. yeah, knowing him he would have.

but back to winter, she still wore her varsity jacket. honestly, I wonder if she has closet full of them or she wore the same one every day of every week. disgusting shet if you ask me but that isn't a turn off. again, I'm a simp and everyone has their faults.

Anyway, today's topic was the continuation of yesterday's topic which was about jeno, his little girlfriend, and jaemin. honestly, it's like we're watching one of those theory episodes after every episode of a drama. and here's mine, jeno and his girlfriend would break but he won't run to jaemin. that's my theory.

but I wasn't paying attention to the topic but, instead was paying attention to the person speaking about it. Kim minjeon, Winter of my life  and the reason I feel hot when she's around despite the ac blowing in the lowest temperature fit to freeze meat. jaemin told me it was because I was experiencing gay panic. me? gay panicking? preposterous! (Keke big words despite not exactly knowing the meaning)

i keep on vocalizing it that at this point, I won't be surprised the gang would pull Winter to the side and hyunjin would slap her with a banner that said: Karina says you're hot.

and as much embarrassing that it is, it's going to be helpful. then to end the story, Winter would tell me she wouldn't mean it and reveal she has feelings for me. we kiss and hug and dance to the sunset with the gang waving their handkerchiefs and wishing us luck. how romantic and Disney like.

then we would have two kids. one boy and one girl. we'll name them—

"hi karina! "

the said widen her eyes, slamming the booklet too harskly that the center table shook before whipping her head to the front door where she saw ningning taking of her shoes. she quickly hid the booklet under the couch.

she offered the younger girl a smile. "hiya ning! " she winced at how faked it sounded.

ningning raised a brow at her, placing her shoes at the side before slipping on her house slipper. "whacha doing? " she leaned over the couch. she saw Karina being hunched on the center doing something. she looked around, seeing nothing suspicious, especially on the table. but she swore karina was doing something. she leaned away, noticing how karina followed her every movement. very suspicious. "actually never mind. I was wondering if I can have a friend over the day after tomorrow. remember Giselle? the girl I've been talking about over dinner? "

"the one who newly moved to the school? I think she's cousins with the guy from the dance troupe" karina scrunched her nose as she tried to recall the cousin's face. he looked like a dragon. "you should ask jaemin. he knows everything about everyone" she rolled her eyes at the slogan the class gave to the bunny. other than winter, he was the second to know all the drama.

"I did" ningning went over to the couching, sitting on it before reaching out for a throw pillow and placing it on her lap. "he's the reason why I got to talk to Giselle "

"I thought you got to talk to her after you offered to make her a persuasive essay and because you would follow her around until she paid for the decorative egg she broke " in karina's opinion, it wasn't ideal you were doing free stuff for the sake of love and to chase after them with a lame excuse but then she looked back at jaemin. "actually, never mind. so why is she coming over? "

"slumber party. you can bring over winter so that it's like a double date" ningning teased, laughing in her high pitched laugh as she watched karina grow red and choke on her spit. "ha! I knew you had a crush on her"

"shut up ning" karina said defensively, taking the trhow pillow and throwing it to ningning who blocked, still laughing. "I don't like her. I happen to blush and react flustered every time someone mentions her name"

"I'm sure you do" ningning was barely convinced. she raised her hands in defeat  a pout on her lips as she watched karina threaten to throw a punch at her. "whatever you say, Rina. by the way, nice diary. never thought you were the type"

karina grew more flustered, turning to a deeper shape of red. she hissed, Leaping off the ground to tackle ningning on the couch but, the chinese girl was quick to evade, running to the kitchen. "ningning! "

"catch me if you can, jimin! "

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