Babysitter or lover? Hosie

Chapter 5

josie pov
i woke up so groggy this morning, Hope called and said she couldn't baby sit, My heart dropped Do i know why? No, i just got so used to the presence of the Auburn haired girl, and i have no idea why she couldn't, That's none of my business either way

"Hey josie" Pedro's face was all rubbed from waking up I didn't have the heart to tell him hope wasn't coming in today but i had to and i had only One day to find a new baby sitter this sucked

"Where's hope?" Pedro's face looked at me like something had gone bad
"Don't worry buddy, She's okay she just can't come in today, Or some other days i don't know yet"

Hearing the way Pedro sighs and walks out the door makes my heart Ache in a way it shouldn't, i shouldn't be feeling this way about her, but i just can't help it, im itching to find out what's wrong with her

After walking down stairs i see Maya laying down on the couch, She sits up and pats the space beside her
Maya raises her eyebrow, what's with her and raising her eyebrow all the time
"What's wrong with you"
i shake my head like nothings wrong
"Where's hope?"

There it is again, the heart ache

"She couldn't come in today, I don't know when she'll come back"
Maya nods her head she looks away like she's thinking of something

"Do you like her josie?"

Again, my heart dropped I don't, I don't , i don't
"No" The word doesn't come right out of my tongue, it hurt to even say it, like my body refused to In a way?
Maya scoffed and rolled her eyes at me before looking back  "That's a lie, Me and Pedro support it Saltzman Do as you please with that information"
"Hey you're a saltzman too?"
She chuckles before going into the kitchen
Hm
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Josie can't seem to focus at all, currently in her office right now, worried about Maya and Pedro because she had to hire some other dumb baby sitter, She shouldn't care but she does
She wants hope

"What's with the long face Josie" Mg ruffles with his hair and sits on the chair across from her crossing his arms

"Nothing don't worry about it" Josie's eye bags are very visible, her eyes drooped down its like she's a whole ghost

"Did you get any sleep last night?"

"No"
Mg is my best friend there's no point in being dishonest he sees right through me

"Hope called in, Said she couldn't come for a few days, I had to hire a new person, my heart shouldn't ache but it does, and i can't sleep without thinking of her and i know it's wrong but, there's nothing i can do"

Mg looks up and down at Josie's tired sad face, Looking for something to say but nothing comes out
but his tone come out softly this time
"why don't you allow yourself to love Jo?"
Josie this time, Looks up at him her face clearly shocked but has no words to say, what do you say to that?

"Everytime you find some happiness, you don't allow yourself to partake in it, If she makes you happy, Why aren't you letting yourself be happy with her?"
Josie's emotions pause, her face pauses
"because you see how easily i got hurt by her just calling in, I can't risk anything bad happening between me and her, for the sake of the kids"
Mg chuckles and scoffs after

"You know they support it, You just aren't letting yourself, grow up Josie"
Mg slides the chair out and walks out of the room before giving one last glance before, and that glance was disappointment

What the hell

Over the past few days Josie went to multiple bars, She knows she shouldn't, especially going alone but, Thats what the girl did to get her mind of one specific Auburn,

"Miss maya?" Damon's voice was nice, You could easily recognize it
"Hey Damon, How you been?"
He chuckles remembering last times event
"So you remember my name? i'm surprised"
"How could i not?"
Damon passes her a beer and goes to attend other people
Drink after Drink after drink, and she's drunk, Yet again, Her brain wonders to The short Blue eyed girl
Her soft voice
Her pretty hair
the way her face looks so pretty looking at her
The way she makes her so nervous by just a slight smile
her soft touch
That snarky voice
how she's shorter Josie finds it cute
but Her mood changes
Josie's mad?
"You know Damon"
Damon turns his back in confusion
"I put my trust in this girl, I flirted i did everything, and she leaves?"
Damon still confused nods his head cleaning bottles
"She leaves? not like a hey i'm leaving because, No she contacts my mother?!" Josie slightly raises her voice
"My damn mother? Not me? I hate her"
Damon finally speaks up after what feels like forever to her ranting
"And who are we talking about?"
"This girl named hope"
Damon's face changes, Somewhat in shock but his face remains calm in a way?
"Ah i see, Just have another beer"
And that beer passes her the hell out
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Josie's POV
Of course i woke up with the biggest headache of my life, How much did i have to drink? and how the hell am i home?
I knock on Mayas room to get somewhat of an explanation
"Maya i know you hear these knocks open the door"
Maya opens the door so fast i almost fall, this girl is crazy Her face is mad though like she's pissed
"Grow up Josie, We're all hurting, But what gives you a right to go out get drunk and have her bring your ass back?" Maya raises her tone this is not good
"How about you grow up and go talk to her yourself, Im done taking care of you when you're black out drunk" Maya scoffs and slams the door in my face

What the hell is everybody talking about i am so confused

Her? Hope?
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Hope called in yet again saying she couldn't come over and over for about a week
Monday
no sleep
tuesday
no sleep
thursday
no sleep
friday
no sleep

She misses hope.

Does the girl miss her too?

she finds herself looking through data bases at her work, she knows she shouldn't be doing this, But she needs to more about her and maybe something about what's wrong, Currently she can't find anything except her age and where she went to school, Salvatore school?
But i went there

Have i really not noticed her all this time?
They could have been high school sweethearts
wait what, Josie is yet again, thinking about Hope and how they could have been dating
Josie slaps herself to get her brain out of the gutter

Josie couldn't find anything interesting so she just put her head down and sighed
This is so exhausting i want her back as much as me hates it, I miss her

"Why the long face Josette?"
That voice, that sweet voice rings through my ears
"Hope?"