It's NOT a crush!

At home

Disclaimer: Mentioning of homophobic thoughts. And a quick reminder that it's marked as 18+ for a reason °3°

Episode 3: At home – Fuck

Fuck... fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!!!

He was going crazy right now. He couldn't get to close his eyes all night. He was just lying in bed, turning from left to right, unsettled, his mind restless.

What had he thought back then? He had kissed Rome! And it had been not only a little peck and it didn't happened by accident. No, there had been want behind it, he had wanted to kiss Rome. Wild, untamed, intense. He never ever had kissed someone with that much passion. Never lost his control like that. Fuck, what kind of mess got he caught in?

He was straight, damn it! He couldn't have the desire to kiss a boy. That was not possible! He liked girls, he wasn't gay... impossible.

Assuredly he was just confused, because he spent too much time with Rome and hadn't gotten in contact with a girl in a long time. That was the reason for sure!

When the sun started rising and the birds started to wake their fellows, Pick decided to get up. He took a quick shower to clear his mind and drove to the campus with a tense face. His hands were still clenching at the steering wheel when he arrived at the parking lot. He took his time in the car to breathe deep. His knuckles turning white when he tightened his grip and with a sign, he let go of it.

He had decided to get rid of the problem once and for all. He simply would ignore everything about it and pretended it didn't happened. That was the best and surly the same thing Rome wanted to do. It was impossible that the kiss wasn't just a slip. And Rome would agree with him. It was on both behalf to forget the whole topic and just move on. Yes, that was a good plan.

He nodded to himself in the driving mirror and left his car. With determined steps he entered the building and started his day.

Moreover, Pick had decided to reduce his time with Rome. Obviously, it wasn't good for him to have him around that much. It only confused his head. The up-coming semester break was ideal for that plan. He would slowly reduce their lunches together in the last two weeks before break, so Rome could get used to it, and at break they wouldn't meet at all and he was free when university started again. It was a good plan and Pick decided to implement it today.

But jokes on him because Porsche cancelled out his plans without knowing. He had organized a club meeting right after lecture that Pick as well as Rome and Emma had to attend.

So much for the plan to avoid Rome today, Pick thought while he was sitting towards Rome in the club room. He didn't really listen to Porsche's rambling about their great work and the plans for semester break.

Pick tried to look as less as possible at Rome's direction, he wanted to avoid any contact. And it was working well but then suddenly his phone vibrated in his pocket and his lock screen showed Rome's name.

'P'Pick? Can we talk?'

'Please?'

'Please stop ignoring me'

He ventured a cursory glance over the table and met Rome's intense starring, his phone still in his hand. Damn it.

Quickly he lowered his eyes back to his hands and put his phone back without checking the messages. It buzzed again and Pick could see out of the corner of his eye that Rome typed harsh on his screen. But he continued to ignore every buzzing in his pocket.

When the meeting was over Pick didn't hesitated one second, snatched his bag and rushed out of the room without saying a word. He wanted to avoid any type of conversation, especially with Rome who seemed to have decided to bother Pick during the whole meeting to catch his attention.