I beg to differ that.", I sassed and got out of his grip ready to move out of the room when he pulled me by my elbow and the next second I was pushed on the visitor's chair.
He trapped me completely by keeping his palms on the arms of the chair.
"I...
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The hospital is the one place you go when you are sick. It is a place where you go to get better but that's not in my case. I never visited a hospital in the past four years.
When Mr Arnold told me that we'll go to the hospital, I was sceptical about it but I never wanted to show my weakness to anyone. I just wanted to hide myself from everybody. But bloody hell, he saw me in my most vulnerable condition. I was so ashamed of myself.
The moment my eyes opened to the sight of the hospital, I felt the urge to run home. Flashes of my pathetic state ran in front of my eyes, I was so bloody embarrassed. Mr Arnold saw me in the worst condition. I wanted to run away but I was too weak to move. I was in so much pain that I wanted to scream. I wanted to die but I couldn't even do that.
The nurse who attended to me was so kind and concerned. She told me I was knocked out for a few hours. I sighed, she was monitoring me when a doctor around my age came to check on me. "How do you feel now Miss?" he had a friendly smile on his face.
I tried to speak but my throat was dry and I could not make a sound."Here." The nurse gave me a cup of water. I drank it quickly. I felt better after that. I looked at the doctor who was busy writing something. "Are you taking any antidepressants Miss?", his question caught me off guard. I was so shocked that I couldn't even answer him.
A knock on the door interrupted my silence. I glanced over the doctor's shoulder and saw Mr Arnold, standing outside. The doctor looked at him and nodded for him to come in. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't even bring myself to look at him but when I did, I was overwhelmed by the sight of him. He looked extremely tired. His perfectly styled hair looked like a mess as if he had run his hands in them multiple times.
"Miss," said the doctor. "I'm afraid you have been knocked out for the past four, reason being a panic attack. I've given you a sleeping pill so that you can sleep well." He continued, "I also gave you medication for your cold, luckily it's not contagious but I'll have to keep you here-", before he could finish, I quickly shouted out, "No! I can't stay here."
I wasn't going to stay there any longer. I wanted to get out of the hospital as soon as possible. Before I could get out of bed, the doctor was quick in restraining me. The nurse held me down till I calmed down.
"Let me go," I begged. "I'll be okay." The doctor's eyes softened as he tried to reason why I should not leave but my reel was stuck on the fact that I can't stay in a hospital even for a damn second anymore. I was determined to leave. The hospital reminds me of my mother's wails. It reminds me of how much of a coward I were. I didn't care I was embarrassing myself in front of Mr Arnold again, all I could care was I can't stay in this hell for a second more.
I looked at Mr Arnold and for the first time, I wanted him to help me. I tried to stop the tears that were rolling down my cheeks.
