Not for Prying Eyes.

Normalcy.

Aboard the Falcon again, Leia had barely spoken a word to Han as she broke away from him and hurried to her small cabin room. Only a few seconds prior, she would have never wanted him out of her sight again, but now all she wanted to do was look herself away for a while, shame washing over her.

She knew the others were worried about her, especially Han, but they didn't call after her as she locked her cabin door. She just needed time away from anyone, it had been too long since she had that luxury, what with every hour being in the syndicate palace always surrounded by people with no privacy whatsoever.

Her cabin on the Falcon was small, Han had always apologised for the space, but she didn't mind that. It was comfortable, if a little crampt, not unlike the quarters she usually slept in on various Rebel bases. As much as Han had teased that it wasn't exactly fit for royalty, Leia had never really cared for frivolous things so the cabin was fine in her mind, the bed wasn't particularly uncomfortable, the heater worked properly and the light wasn't too strong or too weak for her eyes, it had all the basics and she was fine with that. Then, of course, there was the fact it was was right next to the fresher.

Leia all but ripped the gold and red costume off as she stripped down. Throwing the wreched thing at the wall opposite her with a huff of anger, Leia rifled through some of the boxes where she had left a few pairs of basic clothes, for emergencies just like this. Taking off the gold jewelry and throwing it aside as well, Leia wrapped herself in a long towel and took up her new clothes in her hands before she opened the door to her cabin and tentively looked out.

Hearing voices talking in the main living area, Leia took no time in slipping out from her cabin quickly and ducking into the fresher door. Locking it behind her, she sighed heavily as she slumped against it.

Unbrading her hair and hanging up her fresh set of clothes, Leia pulled off her towel and setting into the shower, letting the scalding water hit her. She barely even flinched at the temperature as she simply closed her eyes and let the water wash over her.

She lasted a minute, perhaps two, before she had turned a deep shade of pink all over and she was forced to reduced the temperature. She had always liked that initial bust of scalding hot water from the Falcon's shower, all the Rebel bases started of ice cold and only really ended up standard room temperature. Han had deduced that there was probably a faulty water pipe someone on the ship that always preset the fresher to its hottest, bit Leia didn't care.

No matter how stressed she often became at her various duties, no matter how tired she felt or how many hours she had just finished, Leia always stayed up long enough to have that well received shower. Knowing her schedule was usually packed and in Rebel bases, water was limited, Leia had managed to average her showers at three of four minutes, just long enough to call her but not enough to interfere with her busy life.

But now, as she stood there in the Falcon's shower, Leia let the minutes pass her by. She scrubbed away, taking off the layers of grime all over her, as she did, she was left alone with her thoughts.

Why hadn't she kissed him? The journey from Jabba's wrecked sail barge to the Falcon had been nearly an hour's journey, in all that time, why had Leia not down the one thing she had been longing to do for so long?

All that time dancing for Jabba, she wished Han was in her arms and his lips were on hers. Their last kiss shared just after he was free from the carbonite had been hurried and sloppy considering Han was literally a twitching mess.

Well they had finally been reunited and he was back in her arms, safe and alive, just as she had wished. In that hour, she had held him close, but with every minute, she finally came to accept that this was not some sick dream that she would wave up from, this was real, he was real. It would have easy and probably welcomed by Han for her to just lean up and kiss him the way she wanted to, but she hadn't.