Falling

Chapter 1

I felt the bitter taste of vomit rise to my mouth, I quickly ran over to the washroom but didn't make it. The chunky liquid spilling all over my new designer handbag. 

"Disgusting!" I yelled. 

"What's disgusting?" I heard my sister Jamie say as she shoved my door open. "Oh, gross! mom just bought that for you!"

"Who said you could come into my room, you little twerp! Get out and don't tell mom."

"Whatever I could care less about what you do," she said. Jamie was a year younger then me and a total snob. I growled in anger at our usual fights and walked over to put my bag in the sink of my bathroom. Lately, I had been throwing up a lot and been so tired and it had been a while since my last period.. I wasn't sure but definitely worried. 

Could I be pregnant?

I decided that I would take a test before I met up with my girlfriend at the dot cafe. 

I took a few minutes to do the test and waited for a few more. Eventually my phone timer went off. It sounded like a siren. Which reminded me of that night. The night I lost the person I thought I would spend forever with. Don't get me wrong I've moved on and I love Maia but a part of me will always wonder what would've happened if I had found Nick before he left.

I grabbed the test off of the counter and flipped it over. Suddenly my face dropped. I thought, 'What? It cant be." I couldn't believe I was pregnant with my dead ex-boyfriend's child. What would I tell Maia, my girlfriend? What would she think of me. How would I tell her? How would I raise a baby alone?

As I walked into the cafe my heart pounded out of my chest and fell on the ground, don't worry I picked it up and put it back.

We ordered our coffee and I nervously engaged in conversation until we decided that we would go back to my place to watch a movie. 

When we got to my house and had chosen a movie I asked her a question that could determine the rest of our relationship. "Hey, how do you feel about kids Maia?" 

"Kids? Where is this coming from?"

"I don't know..."

"I mean obviously I don't want kids now but I guess we are going to college next year so we need to think about our future together. I really can see myself having a kid with you and getting married, after college though of course." Those words felt like a knife ripping at my insides. She was sweet and perfect and clearly loved me, but I knew she wouldn't be comfortable with my pregnancy.

I chuckled awkwardly, told her I loved her and turned on the movie. I quickly fell asleep.

When I woke up I saw Maia hovering over me with a scared look on her face.

"Maia what's wrong?" She just looked at me and tears sprang into her eyes.

"Whats wrong Maia? Your scaring me."

"I found the test. That's why you were asking me about kids? I don't even know what to say right now."

"I promise I was going to tell you-"

"No. I cant do this." Was the last thing she said to me before running out of my mansion.