How it's going in my life

eeeww Wednesday

Damn I didn't know affirmations meant so much my mom told me yesterday night to say something nice about my self and I was like ok but she said she wanted to hear me. I said it bu tf I paused she said some nice words and it made me cry but only a little because I didn't want my mom to see me crying. Then she told me goodnight I love you. I felt better about my self like I was happier then before idk. I guess because I haven't said affirmations in a long time.

The reason why I cried a little because i had a shitty week last week it was just a fucking depressing waterfall. I had cried in front of my bsf tiani and my boy bsf Damari.he was drawing I didn't want him to see but I think he did. But What made me think and wanted to cry most was people making me feel dumb and not trying to say stupid things I didn'tmean to say. Basically like being scared to say something and someone doesn't like you and ditch you idk how to explain it. I feel like that song pity part by melanie Martinez. That song means feeling lonely and being depressed. But I only feel that way in certain classes.But I hope I start this day very well. Oh and don't get me started on this bitch who talking behind my back and talking mess. Like bitch I act differently at school I'm a whole fucking catfish at school. Nothing not stopping me from beating your ass. My inner me will come out I won't be nice. One wrong move like hitting me. I won't be nice and guess who it is danae. But I ain't let it affect me.
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Beep beep beep

Me: ugh shut up. * I had turned it off*
Mom:you up
Me: yes
Mom: ok just checking I'm finna go back to sleep.
Me: ok love you
Mom: love you to wake me up when you leave.
Me: ok
I then got dressed and listened to music. After that I got some cereal because why not even though I get breakfast at school. Because I still be hungry.

~at the bus stop~○□
I'm walking to the bus stop and sat down. Waiting for the bus while I was waiting I was talking to. Serenity

~on the bus~□

~Advisory ~□
I'm at Advisory and I'm talking to Alaysia on ft because she have a doctor's appointment and she didn't come to school I said hello because I couldn't hear her and then this dumbass boy fucking said Hello mocking me. Then I said niggas funny these days . His name his Izaiah by the way he sanged that song I walk with a stick I walk with a gun I shoot niggas for fun like boy shut the fuck up. Hold the fucking fact is this boy ain't even black. I just ignored it while other people laugh then I asked my advisory teacher well the substitute can I go to my reading teacher class since it was next to her and she I can go over there she sai yea but ask your teacher. He said yes Idc. I didn't wanna cry but I did because I let someone wreck my fucking mood that same fucking day I didn't cry because the non black boy said something racist. Inplus it barely bother me now because so many non black people at this point I don't care. But anyway I was so frustrated because I really let someone who ain't cute don't get hoes or look like fucking et Mixed with doby from Harry Potter.
Imma stop talking about it just wrecking my mood. But the people who helped me stay calm eas my friend Alaysia she said I know it's frustrates you but just take a deep breath it's gonna be alright don't let that bitch affect your mood. I smiled because I was happy and also reina to.

~ Dismissal~□

It was dismissal and I had to hurry up and go to get my play theater medal and then I hurried and ran to the bus so I wouldn't miss my bus but I guess I wasn't late I waited for my friend serenity and others to get on the bus.

~night time~

It was night time and I really just wanted to go to sleep. Because all this stuff. Sometimes I wish I could smoke(And no I'm not talking about no dusty ass cigarettes.) or do something to take the pain away. I don't smoke because I said im not and i wanna make sure I'm good in life and I don't wanna get in trouble my mom. Inplus she would know because she smoke weed so yea. Have you ever wish that you wanted to be like a famous person or a celebrity like I wish I was I had derektrendz life he living his best life. I need things to take pain away. But I really don't know how.

I hope I don't sound like the wannabe main character girl to yall lol .

I know it was short I'm sorry but I didn't feel like writing alot today.

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I love yall ❤I hope yall had a nice day and no negative things.
Yall are beautiful, smart and Intelligent people.

Goodnight🥰😴

Don't let the sexy frosty❄ the snowman☃️ bite 😏

All right goodnight 😃
Lol😂