Reincarnated As The Next Progenitor

Dead, But Not Really

I'm seriously going to die here, was what I thought as the murderer came towards me. I was going to die. All because I wanted to just had to run late in coming home, I was going to die. 

Hah! How much more could life throw at me? I was born unexpectedly. My mother had a fling, and boom! She had me, her life's biggest regret.
Needless to say, there was no compassion for a child like me, which shaped my personality greatly.

I was considered evil, vile, perhaps cursed by those around me. I was dull looking, with a personality befitting of a villainess. I lived my days bleakly, malnourished and unloved.

Until today. Today, I was going to die. It seemed like my mother brought in someone more than she could handle. She laid on the ground in the kitchen, bloody and bare. I silently laughed.

Her death fit her. She was ravished and then killed. Her face still had a look of joy on it. Perhaps she had been killed in the act. Even though this person was going to kill me, I had respect for them. They killed the woman who put me through a life not worth living. I would have ended it long ago if I wasn't scared of putting myself through pain.

Death... I was going to die, and I didn't care. This person, they were a hero to me. First killing the wench who birthed me, and now ending my life, allowing me to find peace.

I closed my eyes and smiled.

"Thank you, my hero." Those were the last words I ever would say.

Or, that was how it was supposed to be anyways. Why could I see things? Wasn't I dead?

Nooooo! I didn't want to be alive, I wanted to be dead! Life was really cruel... had that murderer not killed me? Had my hero become the devil? What kind of murderer doesn't kill the eye witness?

Silently, I raged. How could they leave me alive? I was supposed to be relishing my freedom, but I could only do that if I was dead! Ugh, this really put a wrench in my plans.

I had gotten my hopes up for nothing. I was still a prisoner of this hateful life. If I died, all my worries, hardships, pains, and struggles would vanish. I would vanish. It would be perfect. Except, I didn't die, and was sadly still residing on Earth, continuing on with my dreadful life. 

Seriously, if there were any gods out there, I wanted to kill them so bad... Ugh! Fate or whoever stopped my death. If I ever met them, they were going to suffer horribly just like me. 

I better clean up the body of the wench. I couldn't have it rotting and inviting all sorts of bugs into the house. There were too many as it was. I couldn't have any more of them stealing my food.

I got up expecting to see the dump of an apartment that I lived at, and didn't see it. I wasn't in the scummy apartment that I had called home my whole life. No, I was somewhere different. I was outside, in nature. 

Nature... something I had come to just ignore. Looking at nature wasn't going to fill my stomach or give me love. It was just something to look at. I never understood people's obsession with it. To me, it was just another thing in this dreadful world. Nothing more, possibly less.

Why was I in nature? That would mean that I was far away from home, because I lived in the smack dab middle of the city. There was no forest, or open space for nature to thrive at near me. Yet, here I was, in nature, no where near where I was earlier. 

Also, it was day break. Last I checked, it was past nightfall. Had I not been killed, and instead taken somewhere else and disposed of? 

"How could you leave me alive like that? You were supposed to kill me like all good murderers! Why did you leave me alive?" I screamed into the air. 

There was no response, not like I expected there to be one anyway. Though it was odd... there were strange plants all around me. They were quite weird, nothing like I had ever seen. Though, it wasn't as if I had studied all of the different types of plants in the world. Like I said, to me, nature is just something that exists.