We were classmates. That day, it all started. I saw my crush at our school stairs i was going up and he was going down. I felt blushed. When I got into our classroom, I told this one person that I saw my crush. He said, "what about me?" I answered, "you?, what about you?" He answered, "you don't have a crush with me?" Im shocked actually. I got thoughts in mind, 'what is he trying to tell me?' but, i just answered laughing, "ok, you're my crush too :)'' and then he smiled and said, "yes"..
Fron that day, he started to stay close to me, in our classroom he always sit beside me. We became close at each other. I used to tell him little problems, and he gave me advice. Wow, he really gave me an advice. I wasn't expecting that. We were really really close, and people around us, friends, classmates, start to think there's something between us. For me, its just a joke that we had crush on each other like we were just playing. I don't know what he really feels.
Days passed, we had a group study,(exam days) we went to a mall and had lunch, with some of our friends. Someone asked him, "hey! who will be your first dance?" He answered, "SHE WILL BE MY FIRST DANCE" (pointing at me) WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT??!! I will be his first dance? Im shocked, I don't know what to say, I don't know what Im feeling, but there's one thing im sure he's not serious. There were days we got so deeply close, and I started to like him.
and the best of that, I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM...
I really don't know how I fell in love with him. Maybe his words and actions drove me to fell for him. So I try to confess everything to him. But he doesn't seem to believe that I love him.He often talk to me. We were not so close like the old times. I can't understand why. Until I came to the point that maybe Im just carried away with his seet words and sweet actions. The truth is, he really don't like me.
I came to a point, I was so stressed about that feeling, I can't sleep well thinking about that. I realized im just making a fool of myself. So, I moved on. But everytime I see him the feelings are getting back.
I did something wrong. I was just playing a joke on his facebook. Im wrong, I have posted a joke on his timeline. It made him angry. I tried to talk to him but he doesn't talk to me. Christmas passed, new year passed. We didn't talk to each other.
Im tired of this. I wrote a letter for him saying "sorry". With all my prides down.. But the only thing he said, "Im not mad at her, im just waiting for her to talk to me first.."
WHAT?! Since when did girls the first mover?!
(to be continued...)
