Luna✔

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Flashback TW Abuse

"Mommy please you can't go." 8 year-old me yelled. "It's okay my dear," My mom assured me while cupping my face. "You are brave Luna, you need to live for me."

My face was red and puffy and covered in tears. She couldn't leave, she just can't. She pulled me into hug. It would have been comforting but I could feel her arms going limp around me. 

"NO MOM!" I started to scream. John was also in the room and he had to pull me back. The doctors started rushing in and the machine next to her started beeping very quickly. I was screaming and crying while John held me. 

Suddenly, the beeping stopped. I froze. It happened. She was gone. What happened next occurred in a blur. 

John took me to the car and we went home. John started drinking. John was sad and angry. John saw me. John blamed me.

I kept sobbing and suddenly John snapped. "Shut up." He said. I couldn't just stop crying. "STOP CRYING." He yelled while standing up.

I cowered back in fear of what intoxicated John would do. I had never seen him like this, looking at me with such hatred.

He stormed towards me and then stared at me. "She's gone because of you. It's your fault. Everything is your fucking fault." He hissed at me. Then he slapped me. He did it so hard I was sent back into the cabinets. "SHE WOULDN'T BE GONE IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU. GOD YOU RUINED THIS FAMILY." He grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and then threw me. It hurt. 

He started to punch me over and over. I was screaming. Then I blacked out.

Flashback Over 

I woke up crying and in a cold sweat. Great another nightmare. They are just a common occurrence to me at this point. Some are just a figment of my imagination, most are memories.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be normal, to have a loving family. 

I checked the time on my phone and it read 3:27. Great, I'm definitely not falling back asleep. I dug under my pillow until I found what I was looking for. I pulled out the bag I had hidden and dumped the contents onto my bed. I made sure to grab the vape under the pillow as well.

I took the empty pod out of the vape and put in a new one. Once it was in, I took a hit. I let the nicotine rest in my lungs for a second before exhaling. The burn in my lungs was a familiar feeling that I craved.

Sometime later, I had lost count of how many hits I had taken. I soon emptied the pod and sighed. The room was slightly spinning but I decided that wasn't enough. I took the last of my weed and rolled it into a blunt.

I grabbed my lighter out of my suitcase and lit the blunt. I took a hit and let the substance fill my lungs just as I had done with the nicotine. 

Later, when my blunt was almost burned out, I felt high as a cloud. It was a wonderful feeling. I took the final hit before the blunt was out and got up. When I got up, my head started to spin and for some reason I giggled. I stumbled my way into the bathroom and tossed whatever shit I had into the trashcan.

My stomach rumbled and I realized just how hungry I really was. I stumbled into the hallway and paused for a second noticing how the walls started to change colors. I continued down the hall and made it to the stairs.

My legs felt like jelly and I decided to slide down the stairs on my butt. I lowered myself down and quietly slid down. I didn't really feel like getting up so I scooted myself to the kitchen. It took a while but I finally made it.

Once I was in the kitchen, I looked around until I found the pantry. I opened the door and wow these people are rich. The shelves were over flowing with snacks and food. Out of all the options, I chose to eat some lucky charms. I opened all the cabinets to find a bowl until I found them.

I grabbed the bowl and turned to the counter. I don't really know what happened next but suddenly the bowl wasn't in my hand, it was on the floor shattered to pieces. 

"Shit," I muttered. This is totally going to end well.

Not even two seconds later, I heard thundering footsteps. It sounded like a stampede of elephants. Next thing I know, all my brothers are suddenly in the room and shouting over each other trying to figure out what happened.

"What the fuck happened?" Ricardo said.

" Well, the bowl and then the uh the floor." I explained like it would solve everything.

"What the fuck..." Leo trailed off. "Wait, are you high?" He asked angrily.

"Noooooooo." I said very convincingly.

Based on the way my brothers looked at me, I don't think they believed my awesome lie.

"Oh my god, look at her eyes." Matter muttered. If I has to guess, I would say they are a bit red.

"What did you fucking take Luna?!" Leo asked, well demanded. Instead of answering, I just stared at him blankly.

"Everyone out." Alessandro said calmly. They all made their way out of the room, some muttering a few not so nice words. When they are all gone, Alessandro brought by his attention to me.

Well fuck, I thought as the severity of the situation dawned on me.

Authors Note

Sorry about the short chapter and not updating lmao. I got locked out of my account and gave up on trying to get in until now. I'm going to try and be more active and post more but I can't make any promises. Thank you bye :)