Futility/Grey Caskets

Futility I

Today, my soul turned to dust,
My ashes scattered over the wasteland
Of my desert, barren soul
Because of you.

I waited for an answer-
Like a sheep led on by a clueless shepherd,
I stumbled into the dark and fell.

I fell into your arms.

I felt a warmth, a life I needed;
I felt you tell me what you never conceded.

With all your words and actions, still
You made me think I was deluded?

My mind split into a thousand fragments-
Lies, distortions, untruths you told.
You never even knew what you were doing,
And now, look where we are.

What little we have left is crumbling;
The ties are cut one by one.
You're a fool and an animal,
Still careless, clueless, utterly destructive.

Our love, our bond
Was flowering and growing.
I felt something real and strong
I had never felt before.

You were blind to it...
Yet you still reacted.

Every drop in the water has its ripples,
Every butterfly its hurricane.

You became my world, my life;
I became utterly dead.
A void grew inside me, crushing,
An emptiness I filled with you.

I gave to you my only will.
I gave to you my heart.
I gave to you a blackened soul,
A weakened, broken man.

You accepted my gifts of loyalty
Yet offered none of your own.
A man without heart, will or soul
Is an empty, hollow shell.

You showed me how you'd become
Everything I'd hoped.
I dreamt- and you did too-
Of alternate worlds where we were one,
And nothing could part us.

You meant everything to me.
You were my world.
This sickness growing inside
Only you could have healed.
You had the power to save a beaten heart,
Yet you delivered the final blow.