Chapter 3: Chapter 3
Final Chapter
Again all mistakes are mine.
Life is an accumulation of moments. Circle of beaded moments, unrelenting, surprising, unapologetic. Random, mundane, all kinds of moments make up ones life. Some forgettable, some passing. But some are just so distinct, so critical, that it has the chance to alter ones life. Could change ones destiny. Could change ones path.
"You left me. How could you possibly make that right? How could you make that pain go away? Tell me one good reason to make me believe that I'm not just the second choice. That I'm not just a spare part you tend to leave behind?"
I've never been more terrified in my life than in that single moment. When I've finally realized the depth of the pain I caused you.
Because at that moment I knew I could lose you, more so than I've already have.
I could lose you for good.
I don't know if I could cope with that. I don't know how I could live with that.
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You told me once, you didn't really remember the first we met. All you remembered was it was at a friends party. A typical meeting. You even teased me that if it weren't for my annoying charm, you wouldn't have been with me. And I told you it was my stunning physique that made me irresistable.
What I didn't tell you was that meeting you wasn't typical for me. Meeting you wasn't something I could forget.
I've never been a people person. Sure, I could socialize and be in a crowd. But it isn't something I'd do willingly. I'm not good with faces or names. It's a rare thing that I notice someone. You were that rare thing, for me. For some reason that one night when I glanced at you, I just had to know you.
It isn't just your stunning beauty. I've seen many gorgeous women in my life but you have a certain presence, a certain depth that interest me. Maybe it's your obliviousness to others stare and the way you scratch your thumb every once in a while. All I knew was I needed to talk to you. So I did.
"Lame party." I sat casually next to you, taking a side glance. Looking for a reaction.
"Yeah." You looked at me, a little startled. Guess you're more lost in thought than I've predicted.
"So what makes you stay?" I asked. You don't really look like your enjoying yourself.
"Hmm, I don't really have anything better to do and I'm all up for the free drinks." You said as you drink your beer. "How about you?"
"Pretty lonely girls that are here for free drinks." I said cheekily.
And instead of blushing like I expected, you just snorted.
"What?" I asked. It wasn't that funny. I wasn't even thinking of being funny. I was thinking more of being suave. Clearly, you thought otherwise.
"Sorry, but that line was lamer than this party." That burned.
" Thought it was clever. Even though you thought it was lame, I still got you laughing and made your night a little bit more interesting, didn't I? Cmon, admit it." I said raising my eyebrows. I know I'm right.
"Yeah, yeah. Gotta give you that. Thanks. I kind of needed that laugh." And I'm kind of glad that I made you laugh.
"How about you buy me a coffee and you'll get en extended time with yours truly?"
"You're arrogant and demanding." You said challenging me. I'm up for it.
"And funny and charming. So..." I may appear cool but inside I was sweating.
