Do you know what it feels like when your life turns around? It's as if for a part of your life you live a normal and peaceful life, and then everything turns upside down. I've always imagined life this way: You go on adventures with friends, you meet new people, you fall in love, they break your heart, but in the end you experience it. There is one part I experienced. I fell in love. Not once, but for the first time I fell in love so much. But unfortunately SHE is not mine. It's his. And it hurts more than I thought. Yes, they are not together, but he loves her. And she knows it. At least he has the courage to reveal his feelings. I do not have.
The day we met was ordinary. We were at school and she came as a new student. She was beautiful. She is beautiful and still is.
I was 14 years old. After another 2 years I was at a party. Surprisingly, Hope was there too. We played the truth or the challenge with alcohol. The night was over with me and her naked in her room on her bed.
The next day after we woke up and realized what we had done, things were awkward. We avoided each other until I went to the gym and saw her hit the punching bag. After I saw her break the punching bag and make me talk about what happened.
We couldn't finish the conversation because we ended up in the gym on the ground, naked. Again. We've agreed to be sex friends ever since, but the only rule we made was that neither of us should fall in love.
And here I am. I am 17 years old and I still sleep with Hope, but there is one problem. I fell in love with her. Pretty bad. She does not know. Nor do I want him to understand.
Two months ago, a boy named Landon came to school and it was clear that he liked Hope. He invited her to a meeting and she accepted. Then a second one she accepted too. But she didn't stop seeing me. To have more of those passionate nights in her room or in some hidden room.
Two months ago, a boy named Landon came to school and it was clear that he liked Hope. He invited her to a meeting and she accepted. Then a second one she accepted too. But she didn't stop seeing me. To have more of those passionate nights in her room or in some hidden room.
It's one of those nights now. We lie in bed naked and hugged. As she ran her hand through my hair, I felt at ease. My head rests on her chest and my arms are wrapped around her waist. It's too nice to stand. If she doesn't have the same feelings for me, I think we should stop seeing each other.
"Hope," I said. ,,Yes?" Hope asked, stroking my hair. "I think we need to talk." I said sitting on the bed. "Why?" Have I done something wrong?" Hope asked, panic on her face. ,,No! Everything you do is perfect, but I think we have a problem. " I said. She sat in front of me, taking my hands in hers. "Whatever we have, we will solve it together, calmly." Hope said kiss my hands. "I don't think that can be fixed." I said. ,,What's wrong?" Hope asked me. "I think we should stop sleeping together." I said getting out of bed, taking my clothes so I could get dressed.
"So I did things after all." Hope said, getting out of bed. "Don't believe me, everything was wonderful, but I broke the rule." When Hope heard my words, she was shocked. She sat on the bed watching me without blinking.
It's been 5 minutes and she hasn't said anything yet. "Hope, will you say something?" I asked. ,,Since when." Those were the only words that left her mouth. "For a while." I said, looking at the ground. "Josie," Hope said, but I interrupted. "No Hope, I know it's shocking for you, but I broke our rule that we should stop seeing each other." With that, I opened the door, but before I could get out the door, Hope closed it, reaching for her hand behind me.
"You have given your heart and your body to me. That means they are mine. Like you. You can't leave this room. Not now. " Hope growled in my ear.
"I admit, at first I was scared when you told me about your feelings, but then I thought, why am I so addicted to you? Isn't it because of sex? Your laughter? Your body? Or yourself? I do not know. But I will find out very soon. Oh, and don't forget, I don't want to see Finch around you. " Hope growled in my ear again and let go of the door.
After leaving the room, I was stunned in the middle of the hallway. What the hell just happened?
