"Let's break up!"
"Sorry napagod kita...but pls can we just rest, the both of us without any of this? "
"No, let's break up not because napagod ako..let's break up kasi ayoko na"
I saw his face become numb dali dali akong tumayo at aalis na sana when he grab my waist and hug me.
"I'm sorry,"He murmured while hugging me.
"No, don't be sorry I'm the one who should be sorry because I'm breaking up with you not just breaking up with you but I did it in our second Anniversary," Malamig na saad ko rito.
"Pls let me go, I need to go," Muli kong saad saknya.
"I..can't let you go like this b-baby"
Fuck that 'baby'!
"Kenjie stop... Ayoko na.."
"Pls stay, remember you said that you won't leave me unless I do something.. Did I do something?" he said while in tears.
"No you didn't do anything... I'm the one who did something kenjie" pigil ang aking mga luha habang binabangit ang mga salitang hindi ko na dapat pang sabihin sa kanya.
He looked at me with his eyes full of curiosities.
"Then tell me, I will listen and try to fix it then"
"No, u cannot fix what I did kenjie" I couldn't stop my tears even if I want to, kusa na lamang itong bumagsak nakita ko sa mga mata ng taong nasa harap ko kung gaano ito nag aalala and because of that I cry even more. He doesn't deserve this, he doesn't deserve me.
"Hey, shhh stop crying and tell me so we could fix it together whatever it is."
I took a deep breath "I'm pregnant.."
I look at him ang kanyang mukha ay gulat...at bigla akong niyakap.
"Athena! I'm so happy, I couldn't believe I am a father now!."
"I'm sorry kenjie.. I'm so sorry" I whispered while trying to stop my tears from falling.
"No no, why are you sorry? It's ok baby."
"I will face the consequences, pananagutan kita Athena kayo ng magiging anak natin." He happily announced.
"Kenjie pls... just let me go ok?" pagmamakaawa ko rito.
"I won't let you go Athena, lalo na ur pregnant I can't just let you go at this hour baka may mangyari pa sayo o sainyo."
"You don't understand kenjie"
"Athena I understand ok? Don't be scared or worry anymore? I'm here and I will do my responsibilities with you and with the baby.. Our son or daughter."
"Kenjie ur not the father.."
When I looked at him his face has no emotions nakatingin lang ito sakin na parang wala ng bukas.
"W-what? No ur just joking Athena so I could let you go, you got me huh haha" sa kabila ng nasabi ko hindi pa rin ito naniniwala.
I'm sorry but that's the truth..
Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil sa mga kinikilos nya mas lalo akong nadudurog.. I just wish na sana panaginip na lang lahat... But it's not, it's not a dream..
"Hey, look at me don't joke around like that it's not funny ok?" And then he held my hands and kissed my forehead.
Athena this is ur last chance to see his masculine face and the last chance na makikita mo sya at mayayakap...Kaya niyakap ko ito ng mahigpit na parang wala nang bukas susulitin ko na dahil wala ng susunod pa.
Ako na rin mismo ang bumitaw sa pagkakayakap saknya.
"Kenjie..." I took a very big breath before I continued
"Yes, baby?"
"I'm sorry pero hindi talaga ikaw ang ama ng dinadala ko, sana mapatawad mo ako...paalam" saad ko rito at tuluyan nilisan ang lugar mabigat man sa dibdib pero kailangan... alam kong masakit para sa kanya pero mas nasasaktan ako kapag nagpatuloy pa ito. I will hurt him even more if I continue this.
Nagpatuloy lang ako sa pagtakbo at lakad para hindi nya ako maabutan pa, ang mga mata ko ay namumungay na sa kakaiyak hindi ko na halos maaninag ang daan dahil sa mga luhang patuloy paring dumadaloy
'I wish this was only a dream......'
I wake up with the sun that touching my face 'panaginip lang ba lahat' inilibot ko ang mga mata pero nakapagtataka na hindi ito ang aking silid hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at iniluwa nito ang aking ina
"M-mom where I am?"
She didn't answer my question instead he hugged me so tightly
"I'm glad ur awake and fine" she was crying...
"Mom, anong meron? Nasan ako?" I asked her one more time
"Y-you don't remember anything? You don't remember what happened that night?" She answered.
"That n-night?" At napagtanto ko nga kung ano ang tinutukoy ng aking ina..
It was real then...
"But how did I get here? Why am I wearing a hospital gown? W-wait m-my baby" I looked at my mother and she started to cry again
"Mom pls tell me what happened, my baby? Is everything alright dba? Mom! Look at me and tell me everything! Pls.." Pagmamakaawa ko dahil wala talaga akong maalala ang huling alaala ko ng gabing yon ay patuloy lang akong tumatakbo papalayo mula sa kanya
"You were hit by a car that night while running...with kenjie"
"Wait with kenjie? How? Nasan sya?" Sunod sunod na tanong ko pero hindi ito nagsalita
"Mom"
"Kenjie is dead..I'm sorry anak but kenjie didn't make it because of the impact on his body while protecting you and your baby." linya nito habang pigil ang iyak
Hindi ko maigalaw ang ang mga paa ko at nanlalamig ang mga kamay ko dahil sa mga narinig ko.
"M-mom my baby?" nanginginig na tanong ko mula sa aking ina
"Anak..the baby didn't make it too" the she hugged me while crying
I felt numb. I couldn't feel anything.I just felt the liquid in my face pouring out in my eyes and falling aggressively.
Is this the punishment I get from doing something? Mawala yung mahal ko at ang anak ko?
