Nurture With You // Jinkook

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"Just go away"

The words rang in my head, he said it twice what should I do stand here and listen or go back to nothing.

I have achieved a career, I am working in a company and many people like me but should I just leave the very certain person who made me into what I am today.

His eyes were red as of he didn't sleep a minute. Those eyes which held so much care for me, those eyes that brought hope to my heart were numb today.

He threw the flower vase at the wall and that creaking sound bring me out of the thoughts I was having.

The room was a mess now and he ran towards his room.

"Jungkook" I screamed to stop him. He has this huge balcony there, my mind goes to places that I don't ever want to happen.

He pushed the mattress on the bed and pulled the sheets, he threw away whatever came to his sight. The pillows, the flower vase beside the bed stand. He kicked away the nightstand and huge artistic lamp. Everything was shattered.

"Everything is over" jungkook spoke

"Everything is over", he yelled loudly once twice thrice.

"Everything is over", he screamed.

"Jungkook stop" I voiced loudly.

"Go away from here Jin just go away." He yelled so loudly that I felt my ears dead and then I realised that I was on the ground suddenly.

I looked up at him but my long hair covered my eyes yet that didn't stop me from seeing the look in his eyes. It was fear of what he did. The fear that I had never seen before, did my eyes looked the same when my parents died.

And then he started punching his hands on the wall.

I stood up and pulled him by his waist, I had to do it so hard that he was on the floor with me now. I came in front of him and pulled his hands to wrap them around my waist. I pulled his head on my chest, he was shaking miserably.

"Jungkook please nothing is over, stop," I said and kept my grip tight on him. He didn't leave me so I started lightly rubbing his back just to assure him that it was all right. It had been 5 minutes since like this and then I pulled back and sat face to face with him.

"Jin I am so sorry for what I did, please leave me. I am no good for you. I destroy you like I am doing myself. Jungkook spoke to the floor, not even maintaining eye contact with me.

"Why did you come so close of you want me far away?" I asked him. My voice was shaky.

He looked up at me but stayed silent, the guilt prominent in those eyes.

"Even after knowing what you are why did you come into my life? I questioned him, my eyes tearing now.

"I am sorry Jin, I want to see you happy but that will not happen if you- if you stay with me." He said so silently so that the walls could not hear.

"You know I have no one except you, how can I leave my only source of happiness," I asked him.

I pulled him closer by the collar of his shirt, I was angry this time very angry but I can't go break things like him.

I lightly pulled their collars, "why the eyes that brought hope to my life are so dull today? What goes wrong Jungkook? I know you are not the guy who I met at the bar that day. You are not that guy who taught me music lessons, who made me realise that I should seek my goals. You are not my Jungkook." I mumbled.

"Jin I am addicted. I have this addiction to drinking and finding confinement in it. I am a coward and I don't want to hurt you in this." He spoke, this time looking directly into my eyes. His hand gripped me tightly by my arms. As is Jungkook was asking for help to me.

"Then quite this, I will help you. But please don't leave me, I have no- no one except you." I spoke as my tears started flowing.

He pulled me in for a hug and I tightly embraced him as if he would run away if I leave him.

"Don't do this to me Jungkook, I love you so much. I know it's hard for you but please for the sake of us quit drinking." I spoke.

He didn't say anything but when I looked up at him his eyes had tears.

"I am sacred Jin, I love you too but I am scared what if I'll hurt you as I did just now. What if one day I slap you? If one day my health gets bad you will have to take care of me as labour. I don't want that for you Jin, I brought you here so you could achieve your dreams and not help a miserable like me." Jungkook spoke.

"I am fearful of us, of our future. I can't see a future where you would be happy with me. I don't think so-

I stopped him by kissing him on the lips, my hands holding his face. His hands were right on my waist, grabbing me tightly. I rub the tears that were on his cheek and kissed him sufficiently. I pulled back and his eyes opened like a daze, so slowly.

"If you want us Jungkook and I am always here for you. I will help you quit your addiction. I know it will be hard but for our happiness, I can do anything." I said, my hands still right on his face.

"I am sorry Jin, I love you so much. I am so sorry." Jungkook spoke and embraced me just to hide those tears in those beautiful doe eyes.

"I love you too Jungkook, we will do this. We will be happy."

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