I carried the sin for weeks
The sin in my belly
The sin from assault
The sin from you
The depraved thing you put in me
The poor child
The poor life.
The sin from you
Into me
The outcome of a crime
The sin you forced upon me
The sin I carried for weeks
The life that bled out of me
...
The life
The only miraculous thing
The thing I grew attached to
The thing I despised
Just as I despised you
But it was the life in me
The life thumping and thriving
A tiny speck of life inside me
A speckle of hope
A little thing
A pitiful critter
Living and growing
Inside a mother
Inside me
A speck of sin
The proof of sin
The poor living thing
The life within
A life taken,
Once mine
Not for long
It lived its life
Just inside my mind.
The life bled out
The little red dot
Once a heart
Then it was gone
I never got to see it
I ever only felt it
The life inside of me
Never belonging in this misery
A life that wasn't mine
The life that would remain,
A proof of sin, in disdain
A part of me,
Left without a name
I never was the same again
