Loving You In A Wrong Time

Chapter 1

Jane's POV

"So, I'm the reason why you don't kiss your husband back?" Seryoso nitong tanong.

Paano niya nalaman yun? Ayaw kong magtaksil kay Alex Kasi sa tuwing hahalik siya, mukha ni Jay ang nakikita ko.

Nagsimula yun few weeks ago. Ikikiss Niya Sana ako sa cheek pero napaharap ako sa kanya, and our lips met. It's just a long smack at sinira nito buong pagkatao ako.

I love Alex but I love him more, pinigilan ko Kasi both of us have a kids already.
Many years akong nagtaggal na kasama siya and what do you expect dun sa ilang months kong kasama si Jay?

"Why answer me?" -Jay

"Sorry, nadala lang ako, it's wrong."

Agad kong kinuha ang robe ko at isinuot ito. Pero agad akong isinandal ni Jay sa may cabinet at kinorner ako.

"Please, tell me why?" Kitang Kita ko ang pagmamaka-awa nito sa kanyang mata.

"Yes, you're the reason. The long smack always haunt me every night, when my husband was kissing me, your face was I am seeing. And I want to stop that feeling. Because it's wrong. I have a family, same to you," seryoso kong sabi

"Same to me, same to me," sabi niya and then napasandal siya sa may cabinet at dahan dahang napa-upo. Nakapikit siya and Kita ko ang mga luha niyang naguunahang pumatak.

First time, first time I saw him crying.

"J-jay," nasasaktan ako sa nakita ko.

"I love you so much pero I can't let go this feelings of mine. When we are always together, lumalala ito habang tumatagal. I tried na d magpakita sayo pero the more I don't see you, the more I misses you. Why did you do this to me. I feel happy when I knew that you're not making out. Kasi every time I imagined it, you're doing it with him, nasasaktan ako ng sobra. But, it's pain me more, knowing you that you love me too pero we can't be together kasi pag-aari ka na ng iba," sabi nito na nagpatulo din ng luha ko.

I hugged him very thight.

"Sorry, sorry Jay for hurting you and you don't know how much it's painful for me I can't be with you. I love you for a long time when we are in Korea pa. Nung mga panahong iniwan ako ni Alex. But, i think my daughter too. My daughter which she wants her real dad. My happiness is sacrificing for a long time. Sobrang sakit din Naman para sa akin eh Yung katotohanang kasal na ako sa iba at d sa taong Mahal ko made me cry every day. Pero I need to face the consequences. Kung Hindi ako nagpadala sa bugso ng damdamin, Hindi Sana mangyayari ito. Pero having Blythe with me right now, made me ease the pain I'm feeling. And, pumayag akong magpakasal kay Alex Kasi I know mamahalin ko rin siya Kasi minahal ko din siya dati. I know, it's hard for us pero can we try  mahaling ang partner natin. Masaya ako Kasi nalaman kong Mahal natin ang isa't Isa, ang masakit lang, sobrang Mahal natin ang isa't Isa yun nga lang Hindi Tayo itinadhana para sa isa't isa."

"Yep, you're right, try to love our partners in life. Mahirap, masakit pero it's for the best of us, for the best of our child. I am more happy to know that you love me for a long time. Pero, we should stop this and try to start again." Nakangiti niyang sabi

"I love you so much, Jane for the last time."

"And I love you too so much, Jay for the last time." And after that, our lips met for the last time.

"Magbihis ka na dun para makababa na tayo. or kung gusto mo naman, for the last time, sa harap ko ikaw magbihis." Asar nito at lumabas na ng kwarto.

"Gago" sabi ko at tumalikod at unti unti ng nagpatakan mga luha ko.