The Heavy Shadow

Megumi's POV

     "Oii, Fushiguro! Let's explore all of Tokyo one more time!"

     "Eh, all of Tokyo? That will take us the whole day; do we even have enough time to do that?"

     "Please, Megumi, I just want to go one more time... I also want Kugisaki to join us too."

Why didn't I notice?

I should have noticed when you said one more time or when you called me Megumi.

     "Okay okay, I'll call Kugisaki and tell her to meet us at the sushi bar then-"

     "Let's go to the place that serves you the sushi in the little bullet train!"

     "Why do you want to go there?"

Shut up Megumi! Let him enjoy his last day.

     "Please Fushiguro! I'll pay!"

     "*sigh* Whatever. Let's go, I'll let Kugisaki know."

     "Hella Yeah! Let's go!"

     We spent the whole day together. The three of us ran all around Tokyo. It was the best day I've had in years, and it was a great way to say goodbye to us.

     Why didn't you tell us Itadori? Was it to avoid Kugisaki and me causing a scene? Was it to stop us from helping you escape, or was it so you could distract yourself from the fact that you were leaving us for good this time?

     I watch the scene replay in my mind. The scene where I watched as you were tied up and plastered with ofuda, being taken away by the higher-ups, and Gojo slowly walking behind you, giving Kugisaki and me a sad look. Panda Senpai placed his hand on my shoulder. I remember turning to see Kugisaki held back by Maki Senpai and Toge Senpai, her yelling to let you go, and let you live; all while I watched in fear, you walked away from us, from me and I couldn't cry.  

Why didn't you run to save him Megumi? You could have saved him and possibly even Gojo. 

     Then we heard the loud crash. A giant monster walking out of the room where you were being executed. I stared in shock. It was Sukuna, but not you. Sukuna was in his true form. In his hands, he held two bloody heads and in one a cube. The cube had eyes all over it, his two hands had principal Yaga's and Gakuganji's heads. Sukuna then threw the cube in front of me. I picked it up. It had Gojo's eyes all over it. Then I heard him say it, 

     "Domain Expansion, Malevolent Shrine,"

     I turned to the others and yelled run, as I activate my technique to escape through the shadows taking the cube with me. I hope the others were able to escape.

Megumi, you're stupid! You know damn well no one can survive his domain expansion. Why couldn't you just be strong enough to save everyone? 

     It's been 100 days since then, I carry the cube tightly since as of now it's the only closest thing I have to a living guardian. Sukuna confirmed that it was Gojo who was sealed in this cube. He refused to tell me how to unseal Gojo and would only tell me if I released him from the shadow I trapped him in. I walked back to the site where it all started. I visit the makeshift graves I made for my friends.

     Nobra Kugisaki and Yuji Itadori. 

     I pay my respects. Maybe I'm cursed with being alone forever. First, my mother dies, then my father leaves, then I lose my step-sister; now I lost my friends and my guardian. Cursed to be strong, but not strong enough to protect those I want. If only I could have been stronger. If only I was able to stop Yuji from eating that damn finger. He wouldn't have infused with Sukuna, I won't have become his friend. I wouldn't be grieving his death. It's because of me he's dead. Do I even have the right to grieve for the death of my friends when it's all my fault? If only I had stopped the higher-ups from taking Yuji and Gojo. I start crying, wishing I was strong enough: to have saved my mom, sister, Gojo and friends, and to keep my father with me, strong enough to live a happy life. 

     "Oi brat you're just crying now? It's been 100 days. I thought you would be over it by now."

     "Shut up Sukuna!" I yelled.

     "Tsk, I could shut up for the low price of my freedom from your shadow."

     I stare at my shadow. That's right, I trapped him in there. He follows me everywhere. A consistent reminder of how stupid and weak I am.

     "One of these days I'll be released. I'll be sure to make you watch as I ruin this world." 

     "No, that won't happen. I'm not going to let you kill more people, you won't kill anyone else."

      I get up and walk aimlessly, like any other day. I held the cube once more. I wonder if Gojo can hear me? Sukuna continues to yell out some non-sense. I stopped listening to him.

     He is now my shadow; where I go he goes with me. Even though a shadow can't have any physical weight, this shadow of mine is heavy. It carries the death of my friends, and the mistakes I made. 

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