hi!
I've come to a realization today Jungwon. After a whole day spent with the people i cherish the most, I realized that after I went away and chose to ignore you guys back when we were still young, I have been living my life in a void.
emptiness.
that was all I felt. Being an Idol was hard, I had to make decisions not for myself but for the people I love.
Back then, when you visited me in the office...
I saw you and God knows how much I wanna run into your arms and hug all of you.
But the boss was watching, he wanted to make me the perfect idol and that meant cutting off everyone who doesn't share blood with me.
He threatened me to hurt you if I ever contact you again. And I would never want that to happen, Not to you guys.
If that answers your question as to why I ignored you that day... I hope this made you feel better.
Today, I thought of actually living life again. Not for myself, but for Won and for you.
I wanna live the life you could've had. babawiin ko yung mga araw na wala ka dito. And I will make it count.
heeseung
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sorry, i felt like mas dama if that part was in tagalog but if you don't understand, it translates as I will take back the days you weren't here.
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