LOVE ME I SAY LOVE ME

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Komori had woken up in a dirty motel room. He sat up shirtless, looking around he saw his T.V on playing the news. He was about to turn it off when he saw his cousin on the T.V with handcuffs on him and his face covered in blood.

He sat on the floor and unmuted the T.V hearing the news reporter talks about how sakusa had murdered Kita in his home along with Atsumu who was injured during the attack. Seeing his cousin having a wide smile on his face and his eyes so dull and no emotions at all.

Atsumu was standing in the doorway holding his bloody arm that was cut with a knife having two police officers stand by him asking him questions. Tho atsumu was just standing there, his eyes were looking at his husband in horror but nothing came out of his mouth when he looked at the officers. His eyes were just plain hazelnut colors no spark no life it was like he wasn't in his body at all.

"𝑆𝑎𝑘𝑢𝑠𝑎 𝐾𝑖𝑦𝑜𝑜𝑚𝑖 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑢𝑟𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑜𝑓 10. 𝐴𝑡𝑠𝑢𝑚𝑢 𝑆𝑎𝑘𝑢𝑠𝑎 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝐾𝑖𝑦𝑜𝑜𝑚𝑖'𝑠 𝑚𝑢𝑟𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑗𝑢𝑟𝑦 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝐾𝑖𝑦𝑜𝑜𝑚𝑖 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑡𝑦."

Komori looked back at his T.V hearing that his cousin was the only person that accepted him, the only person who understood him. The person who saved him from ending his own life, a person who he gave up to another knowing his happiest will end if he dies. Komori punched the T.V and quickly left the motel leaving some money for the T.V repairs.

Sitting in his car, his breaths were getting rough and faster. holding his chest he looked up to see a photo of Sakusa and Komori when they were in middle school, dressed up as two puppets and Komori holding a rock.

Komori felt a little sting in his heart, it was as if his heart was stabbed by a cold, hard, heavy, sharp blade. He held his shirt, tears rolling down his face as if it was a rainstorm. The bottom of Komori's eyes was red from crying, his eyes were dried and his body felt tired and heavy. 

Komori was looking through his phone seeing all of his photos of him and sakusa as kids. He stopped at one, the photo was Komori and sakusa wearing a full-on white suit, holding a white epee and swords. 

2007 

(fencing class)

(Grandfather's garden)

Komori was watching sakusa eat his watermelon in silence, he was glaring at his cousin who was eating away like he didn't put hamster poop in his cousin's epee. While sakusa ate in his grandfather's garden Komori was mad at him.

"Why are you so mad?"

"I wonder why I'm so mad."

Sakusa looked up at the sky with his blank stare and looked back at his cousin then he finally realized what he did.

"Oh! I put my hamster's poop in your epee, didn't I? Did I get it right?"

"YES, YOU DID! NOW MY EPEE SMELLS LIKE POOP!"

"Relax I'll buy you a new one."

"But it's about $100! No way I'll let you buy it."

"...I can't believe my cousin has the poor Epee..."

"It's not cheap!"

"I'll just buy you a new set, that has richer materials. "

"What I can't let you do that!"

"Relax your acting like I'll die just from spending such little money."

"Okay then, just don't die...promise..?"

"I promise, you big baby.

"Sakusa! komori! Come on let's go back to training."

Sakusa looked out the sliding shoji seeing his grandfather holding the same outfit they were wearing but holding a wooden sword. Sakusa closed the lid that held the watermelon and walked outside to his grandfather.

"Though once I find my other half, I don't think I can keep that promise, Mori."

Adult Komori was standing out of Sakusa's and atsumu's house holding a paper and looking sad. He knocked on the door to see that it was open. He walked inside to see atsumu sitting on the pina playing a key-F. when he walked closer he saw a gun next to the brunette.

"I miss him Komori...I know he hurt people, I knew he was different from any man or woman I have met...he was too good to be true. Why can't I have a normal love life?"

Komori looked at atsumu who turned back at him crying, he saw how sad atsumu was. His cousin will die soon and atsumu knew his husband for years and even married this man. Komori took a deep breath and let it out. He hugged atsumu who was holding his tears back, when atsumu hugged Komori back he felt sakusa in him, seeing and feeling that beautiful curly hair male. 

"I'm sorry atsumu...I'm really sorry."

Atsumu's eyes were getting watery hearing Komori's words. Atsumu just broke down his walls around his heart walls had broken down, Komori broke them just like sakusa. Expect it wasn't love, it was a pity. Atsumu felt like his emotions had finally come out. He hugged Komori tight and just cried on his shoulder. Komori noticed the bandage on his arm, seeing the cut on his arm that was shown on tv made Komori look at atsumu who was just crying his eyes out.

"Do you wanna visit my cousin?"

"...I don't know...I still have feelings for him but now that hurts people because of me I feel like if I get too close to someone...they will get hurt as well...just like Suna...Kita...Mimi...and even my brother."

Komori looked shocked hearing his brother was attacked, he looked at atsumu who was about to cry.

"What happened to him Atsumu?"

"During Kita's attack, I called Osamu...and he was shot in the stomach...it's my fault...no matter how hard I try every one I touch or go near dies...I don't want anyone to get hurt because of me Komori...so what do I do?"

Komori smiled at atsumu, he sat near the brunette and touched his hair.

"You can't escape your fear until you have fought it, running away from it will only lead you to have more fear. What will happen when sakusa dies, and you fall in love again? Are you gonna push them away because you fear sakusa will hurt them?"

"I don't know...should I visit sakusa first or my brother..."

"I'll take you to him if you want."

"Thank you, Komori."