Laundromat Blues 1

Temptation pt.4

Temptation pt.4 

 +back to Rita P.O.V.+ 

Runnin through the hallways of this hospital, cryin my eyes out, i feel like such a fuckin idiot. Why the fuck did i think i could live my life without this man? He is a part of me. A part of my heart. What the fuck was i smokin on when i thought i could be happy without bein able to see his face, kiss his lips, touch his body? I swear i must have been temporarily retarded. If somebody don't tell me where the fuck his room is, i might have to shoot this fuckin hospital up. 

"Yo!! Somebody need to tell me where Kurtis King's room is!" i yelled, tears runnin down my jaw. A doctor walked over to me.

"Ma'am are you here to see about Kurtis King?"

He just pissed me off.

"Why the fuck would i be askin about his room number if i wasn't here for him?!" i yelled.

"Ma'am, i know you're upset right now but im gonna have to ask you to lower your voice and stop cursing at me." he replied. I took a deep breath.

"Now, right now he is in surgery. He lost control of his vehicle and smashed into an 18-wheeler."

"Oh my God!"

"He is in critical condition. He has a concussion and surgeons are trying their best to make sure he doesn't develop brain damage. There is a chance that he might not make it or he will be in a coma. Ma'am, i suggest you prepare for the worst. This kind of procedure almost always fails." he said slow and careful.

I fell to my knees and cried harder than i ever have. I mean i just broke down. My body shook with turmoil as i pictured visions of a passed away Kurtis, in a coffin. This man is my everything. I love him more than I've loved any man besides God and my father. If he was to die........ i would probably die of a broken heart. I was so lost, i didn't even realize everybody starin at me. The doctor helped me to my feet and over to the waiting area. I sat in a chair and continued to cry.

"Ma'am....... all i can tell you is...... pray." He walked away and left me there.

I closed my eyes and put my hands together.

"Lord God..... I know I've been disobedient to your word lately and i haven't been the best representation of your kingdom, but right now....... i need you. Lord God, please...... PLEASE........ don't take him now. I wouldn't be able to handle it. I love him so much God. He's my heart. Please don't take him from me right now. Lord i need for you to watch over him and protect him with your love and your mercy. God please let him live to be able to serve you. I know you can fix this and i know you will Lord God, so i thank you in advance. Thank you for your many blessings and your everlasting mercies, heavenly father. Thank you for loving me enough to bless me with this man who loves me as well. Thank you for just being who you are. You didn't have to wake me up this mornin, but you did. You are so worthy and so awesome God and i thank you for being a healer. Lay your love on him and heal him Lord God. Make a way out of no way. Thank you. In your son, Jesus name i pray, Amen."

I wiped my tears and opened my eyes. I pulled out my phone and called Karen.

"Hey girlie! What's up?" she answered.

"Kay........" i cried into the phone.

"Rita? Baby sis, what's wrong? Where you at?"

"Im at Christ Hospital. Kurtis was in a car accident. Kay........ im scared." i cried.

"Im on my way." she said. We hung up and she showed up 5 minutes later. She ran to me and hugged me as i cried into her shoulder.

"Rita, it'll be okay." she said and rubbed my back. We sat down and waited and waited. I dozed off, layin in her arms. Four hours later, i was awaken by a doctor.

"Ma'am, Kurtis is out of surgery and headed to Recovery. You'll be able to see him in a little while, but he is in a coma. There's no telling how long it will take for him to come out." he said. I nodded and he walked away.

"Lord Thank you for letting him live to see another day. In Jesus name i pray, Amen." 

I wiped my tears and woke Karen. 

 "What happen? Did you find out anything?" she said rubbing her eyes.

"Yeah, he made it through but....... he's in a coma." i said.

"That's better than the other option so we'll take it. We just have to continue to pray, sis. Everything will work out." I hugged her.

"I hope so, Kay...."