Dios mío..[encanto x male oc]

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⚠️this book is going to have
some serious topics, please do not joke about them in the comments.⚠️

(I kinda changed it so Julieta can ONLY heal broken bones and Illnesses. Not wounds or infections.)
!!!Trigger warning!!!
•s3lf h@rm

(You guys can imagine that Raymond is you if you like<3)

shouting, lots of shouting. Mainly between isabela and mirabel. They were just arguing again, but nothing out of the usual. We were all in the kitchen eating breakfast. I was sitting next to Luisa, Luisa was sitting next to Dolores, Antonio on my lap playing with his stuffed leopard that mirabel gave him and Camilo was sitting on the kitchen side, though all of us are watching the same thing go down.

Antonio spoke up about it first.
"Guys, it's 7:21am. Isn't it a bit to early to be fighting?" He asked.
"Shut up!" Isabela said, not looking away from mirabel. Oh hell no.

"Don't start on tonio, señorita perfecta" i said, Not looking up from my book. I don't think she liked that.

"You, Ray, need to learn some manners, you can't go around threatening people all the time, you make the family look bad!" Isabela yelled. I looked up from your book and glared at her. "What? I didn't even threaten you.."

"Leave him, Isabela! He hasn't done anything wrong, your too caught up in your stupid argument to see what's right." Luisa defended me. "Gracias, Luisa" i smiled. I drank the rest of my water and put Antonio down.

"I'm off to do my chores, if anybody needs me just shout." I said while walking off. "Wait, Ray chores down start for another hour!-" Camilo yelled. the door slammed shut. "He's angry again, I can hear his heart rate" Dolores said, poking at her food.

"See what you did, isabela?" Mirabel said, blaming her oldest sister. "Shut up mirabel, you started it!" and they were back at it.

A few hours after everyone started doing their chores around town, I ran into Dolores. "Hey Dolores." I said, not looking away from my work. "Hey ray. Why did you just leave like that earlier?"
"It doesn't matter, honestly"
"Oh..Alright, stay safe hermano!" She smiled.
"Yep, see you later."

~a few hours later~

Finally, I was finished with my chores. everything was bad today, people were getting on my nerves and I was getting insanely frustrated. I always had problems with my feelings and my anger, but today was one of those days that made me literally want to break my promise after a whole year. I was so done, I hadn't had one of these days for months.

i was walking back home, ready to screw myself up again. so many comments, too many comments about how I'm not doing enough work, about how so-and-so is working harder than me, how I should be more like my family and how careless I am.

"Hey raymond. Maybe try a little harder tomorrow, ay?" One of the shopkeepers said. I was right in front of casita, I was literally standing on the doorstep. I even had my hand on the handle. my eyes watered slightly.
"Yes Señor. I'll try harder." I said, my voice cracking at the word harder.

i opened the door and violently slammed it shut while forcefully throwing my bag of supplies to the wall. This alerted Camilo to come out of the kitchen to see what the fuss was about.

i heard loud footsteps coming from the kitchen, I quickly grabbed my bag from the floor and I bolted to my room. Just missing him.

~ten minutes later~
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I was now sitting on my bed with a knife in my hand with the blade resting on my upper arm, working up the courage to pierce myself. I wanted to do it, but I didn't at the same time. Mainly because it wouldn't make my family proud. i just wanted to concentrate on something else other than my anger.

Casita moving the floor tiles desperately to stop me from doing it.

i had tears in my eyes and on my face, I was holding my breath to not make any noise. I decided I was wasting time and I just went for It. the Sharp, long knife that I put in my bag after I earlier used to help cut vegetables with my tia Julieta was now halfway inside my arm.

Blood quickly poured down my arm and onto my orangey-yellow rauna, staining it a firery red. I let out a Not so quiet whimper and held my upper arm. It wasn't supposed to go so deep, there's no way I'm getting away with this. Then I figured Dolores definitely heard that and I grabbed a tea towel and wrapped my arm up with it. I scratched my neck and got a small splatter of blood on myself without noticing.

It was late at night so nobody should be downstairs to catch me. I grabbed the knife off my blood stained bedsheets and I legged it downstairs. I was washing the knife in the sink, not worrying about someone coming in because i could just turn invisible in a millisecond, I still needed to be carful because my rauna wasn't long enough on the arms to cover up the bloodied towel and it was also covered in blood.

Once I finished washing the knife, I put it away and sat at the kitchen table. i put both of my elbows on the table, one hand covering the side of my face and the other hand covering my mouth, stopping the sobs from leaving my body. My right arm stung so badly.

i sat there for a second and i saw mirabel and Camilo walk into the kitchen, they didn't see me though, I was invisible.

they sat at the table in front of me and talked. I couldn't go anywhere either because the door was shut, if it suddenly opened, they would know I was there and that was the last thing I need right now.

they sat and chatted shit for ages. I was trying not to fall asleep because if I wasn't awake, I wouldn't be invisible. I was waiting for them to finish until mirabel goes
"We know your in here, ray. You weren't in your room and Dolores said you were here." She smirked, Camilo replied "cmon, stop being invisible. Talk to us!" I don't think they actually knew I was here. I'm pretty sure they were just testing it. But I took off my rauna and put it on my shoulder making it cover the towel.

i sighed and turned visible. Camilo and mirabel looked at each other and laughed. "We didn't actually know you were here, Hermano" Camilo chuckled. I laughed nervously and stood up, ready to walk away. "Haha, yeah. Uh- I'm going to bed now, buenas noches!" I said. I turned around but mirabel wanted me to stay, so she grabbed my rauna in attempt to keep me there, "hey, wait a sec!-"

She pulled it off. My arm was now exposed to my hermano and prima.
Camilo looked up from the towel into my eyes. I was just staring at my arm just like mirabel.

without thinking, she quickly took the tea towel off without giving me a chance to protest. it stung and I let out a slight whine at the pain.
"M-Mira pass it back-"

Camilo stood up and walked over to me and took a closer look at the cut. He then said in a quiet voice, "you did this purposely, didn't you?" All I could do was tear up. He hasn't seen me cry since I was 12. I hadn't let him see me cry since I was 12.

he didn't say anything else, but he brought me into a hug. he then leaned on the kitchen side shushing me. He looked at Mira and mouthed "get màmi." We just sat there, me crying and him stroking my hair softly. About a minute later, mamá came in and rushed over to us.

She took me from Camilo and said "ay, mi hijo pequeño. Estás bien? (Oh, my little boy. Are you okay?) She kept kissing my forehead and whispering things. Soon, mirabel brought me back to my room and kept me company until I slept, having to make sure I didn't do anything.

how stupid can I be?
I got caught.
Máma is probably angry and Camilo probably thinks I'm a baby.
I am so done with being the failure of the family.

Yes, we all love angst, and I know this one was probably a bit much for chapter one, but I didn't know what to do and I cringed while writing a bit of this idk why but I was just like "😐" 😭anyway, if you guys have any clue on what I can do or how to improve it, let me know!<3

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