All for the good

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Emmanuel's perspective:

Nelli was sitting in front of me but she wasn't in front of me. I just bought her a meal and like 3 cocktails. I had a whole day planned for us because I needed to find a way to make it up to her.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Yeah why wouldn't I be?" She slightly giggled picking up her drink and taking a sip. She looked at her phone, locked and turned it face down? I would never expect Nelli to do something unfaithful as much as I enjoy accusing her of it but that was really suspicious of her. I brushed it off, for now, but Im gonna find out what that was about later.

Later came sooner than I thought. My mum facetimed me.

Mum-  You with Nelli now?

Me- Yeah

Mum- Im calling her and its not going through, put her on the phone.

I passed the phone to Nelli.

Nelli- Hi, my phone died sorry

Mum- I was just gonna ask how do you...

They had a conversation and I noticed that mum kept asking Nelli if she was okay. I wonder if she is okay too. She's not herself right now. I can tell and Im pretty sure its not all because of me. I will find out though, trust me I will. After she got off the phone we ate, she started talking abit more when her drink started hitting her. We spoke about a lot of things but when the topic of getting back together came up she started acting all awkward and suspicious like when I picked her up. I just cut the conversation short when I noticed that because we had a good day today, I didn't want to ruin it.

Nelli claimed her phone was dying but she didnt even put it on charge when we got in the car... I offered it to her and everything but she said no. She's  being very weird today. I want to believe its because of what I said yesterday but I'd be lying to myself and I know it. At some point on the drive home, Nelli had to use the bathroom. Perfect.

Me- Fill up the tank while you're out there please

I passed her my wallet and she did exactly that. As she walked round the back of the car to fill it up I slid her phone onto my lap and made sure she wasnt paying attention. I connected her phone to the charger and it turned on? It was never dead. It was just off. By the time it had turned on Nelli was walking to the petrol station. Great.

I unlocked her phone, easiest password, If it wasn't my birthday it was Isaiah's or Vianni's. It was Isaiah's. I wouldn't have known the first place to look if a bunch of imessage notifications didn't come through. I looked up quickly and she was second in line, I looked back down. I opened the thread and scrolled to the first message she received from the number today. Wtf? I looked up at Nelli and she wasnt there anymore. I didnt see her coming out either so she was probably in the toilet right now. Cool I need to be quick. I didnt have time to read through everything so I screenrecorded the conversation, air dropped it to myself, deleted it from camera roll, then from recently deleted, closed the app, turned her phone back off and put it back on her seat. Just in time for her to be walking back to the car.

I was eager to read these messages, very eager. I couldn't wait to get home to sit and go through this. I was getting impatient and you know how the roads like to get at like 6pm. Traffic.

I made the executive decision to read it while we were stuck in traffic and thats exactly what I did. I paused the video and scrolled along at the bottom so I could see it frame by frame. What I was reading made my blood boil.

"I haven't stopped thinking about you since you left"

"It wasn't just sex, we made love."

Suddenly, I couldn't see the road clearly. My heart was hurting. Breathing became a very hard task. I wanted the ground to swallow me. I dropped my phone on the floor and I just sat there. It wasn't just sex we made love??? Wtf? Nelli fucked Izzy last night??? It hasn't even been 24 hours since she fucked a next man and she's sitting in my passenger seat. I felt sick. I think Im getting a fever. I was hot from the inside out.  I put the window down so I could get some fresh air. My body was doing some weird things to me. I can't do this. My body just gave way. I didnt pass out but I could not move.

Nelli- EMMANUEL?!

I didn't understand why she shouted my name until I heard it. My car rolled back into the front of someone elses car. So not only has Nelli broken my heart and made me ill, she's made me crash. Fuck the traffic. Im getting the fuck out of here. I didn't waste time, I sped off. Nelli was talking to me but I couldn't even speak. I did not speak for the whole ride home and the route I took was even longer. A good 40-45 minutes of silence. I couldn't even play music, I have a headache.

We got home and I went straight into the bathroom. I threw up. It was absolutely disgusting. How can this be happening to me. I know I know, Im E fucking Squeeze how can a bitch have me like this? I don't know.

I rinsed out my mouth and went into the kitchen. I had to get away. I called Clarissa and told her I was coming over now. I didnt even drive, I couldn't trust myself behind the wheel I'll drive into oncoming traffic.