I have never drowned into an ocean of emotions. Each wave is leaving a scar, leaving a print, a stamp on my mind. It drives me crazy. Am I enough, am I alone, am I being loved, am I pretty, do people actually like me, and so goes the list on. My life has never been this chaotic as today. tomorrow I will turn 20 years old. I would always have butterflies in my stomach, because of my birthday. This evening I just want my birthday to be over, even though my birthday is tomorrow. I just want It to be over. listening to my comforting music again and writing my life, in the hope to light people up about what is right and what is not. My life is definitely not right and I hope that you can love yourself like no one has ever loved you before. I sincerely wish you the happiness in your life because I know what it is like not to have that bright star. Feeling numb and having the feeling of loneliness is a habit now. Thinking that I would write for fun but I feel like I am not ready for this chapter of my life. Maybe life will bring us together one day or maybe not. Destiny will bring us together and we will stay in touch if this is written for us. But for now I want you to take care of yourself. For me, I try to control my waves in my life so people can actually be able to sail on my ocean. I will be waiting for my bright star that will give me light and emotion into my life. Thank you for reading my story before my birthday.
Lots of LOVE Augusel
