Without Your Love (Colleen Ballinger and Joshua Evans fan-fiction)

chapter 3

Josh's POV:

I collapsed on top of Colleen. I was trying to stay strong and hide my emotions, but I love her so much and just couldn't. After 12 minutes I sat up and looked down. I saw tear stains on her bed. That made me think of all the times I cried on her or she cried on me. That made me cry even more. I felt like I was gonna die without Colleen in my life. I need her. And I hope she needs me. I just lay there next to her, crying my eyes out. I decided I should get some rest, so I crawled on the couch and curled up into a ball. I fell asleep.

I had a dream where Colleen and I were in our house. It was based in the future. We had 2 kids, they were twins. A girl, Lily, and a boy, Noah. they seemed to be about 5 or so. Colleen and I were playing hide and seek with them. Colleen and I were hiding and I heard a loud thump. Colleen got up and I heard her scream my name. "Joshua!" She sounded scared. I heard another cry too. 

"Daddy! Help!" It was Noah's voice this time. I jumped up and immediantly saw a man with a gun, holding Noah. Colleen was slowly backing away from the man. Lily was behind her, crying while clinging to her leg. Colleen's face was tense. I was scared, too. 

"What do you want from us?" I asked politley. Noah was squirming around, trying to get out of his arms. But the man had a very strong grip on Noah.

"One of you, the parents, come with me or the boy gets it." He said in a dark, evil sounding voice. He was indicating that he was gonna kill Noah unless one of us came, Colleen or me. I stepped forward.

"Take me" I cryed out. I stared into the eyes of the man. He set Noah down and grabbed me. Noah ran to Colleen and she picked him up.

"Joshua, No you can't leave me." she said. 

"I have to, its our only choice." I replied. I don't even know what the man wanted from us, but i wanted to protect my family. Colleen set Noah down and walked forward. I thought she was gonna kiss me one last time, but instead she went right up to the man, they were about 1 foot apart. Her body got real tense. She clenched her fists and had very tall posture. Her shoulders were rolled back and she closed her eyes. She opened her mouth.

"Take me instead." She said. I couldn't let this happen. 

"Colleen, no!" I shouted. "You are going to stay here with the kids and take care of them. Continue doing youtube to get paid. And most of all. Don't think about me." The last part I cryed out. She turned to me and shook her head no. 

"Goodbye, Joshua. I will always love you." She opened her beautiful eyes and said in her sweet voice. 

"Are you sure?" The man asked. She turned to him and held out her hand.

"You have my word." She replied in a very shaky voice. The man let go of me and I collapsed. The kids crawled on top of me. 

~end of dream~ 

I flashed my eyes open. I couldn't remember where I was. Then I remembered. I looked over at the love of my life slowy hoping she was awake. She looked exactly the same as when I fell asleep.

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Hey! Sorry I haven't uploaded in a while, I've been really busy. I have practice for gymnastics almost everyday now, and I was sick for a long time throwing my stomach up. Worst St.Patricks day ever. Any ways, what did you think? For me, personally to write it it was a lot of fun but at the same time very emotional. Put your feedback down below. P.s. @joshleen_is_bae don't do it. You have so much to live for in your life. Go check out her account. Give her lots of love and tell her i sent you. Anywho, thats it! thanks for reading. Peace out girl scout! (even if your not a girl shout...hint hint indicating myself...just roll with it.) BYESSSSSSS!!!!!!

another ps lol wtf did i just write? *insert laughy-crying emoji*