"Tumse shadi krna Sameer ka decision tha, Kisine usse force nhi kiya. Ohkk?? Guilty feel krne ki koi jarurat nhi hai.. " Aunt told.
"Haan Naina. " Preeti put her hand on my shoulder. "Sameer was free to take decision he wanted. Agar wo naah bhi krta to bhi hum kuch nhi kehte. Par usne nhi kiya. Kyuki yeh uska decision tha. Tumse shadi krna, tumhari madat krna. Theek h?? Toh plz guilty feel krna band kr warna mujhe guilty feel hoga. "
"Dekho Naina" My head turned to asma aunt. "Hamesha ek cheez yaad rkhna beta. Humari zindagi me jo kuch bhi hota h uske piche allah tala ki koi mehr chhupi hoti h, Jo wo chahte h, His plan for us. So just trust Allah and go in the flow of ur life, Ohkk??"
"Mujhe allah peh pura yakin hai" I replied, nodding slowly. I was a devotee of allah and believer of fate. I knew in my heart this Concealed accidental marriage was written by allah in my fate.
"Ek cheez aur" Aunt added. "Nikkah ke baad, Sameer tumhara pati ho jayenga. He'll be ur new world. However.. My dear child.. Sameer is still kid by heart. This is completely new dimension for him. Aur mujhe pta h tum dono ek dusre ke bareme abhi kuch nhi jante. Toh main chahti hu pehle tum ek dusre ko jano, pasand na pasand, baat kro usse, ghulo milo. Aur aisa krne se hi tumhari yeh concealed marriage kaam krengi"
"Mujhe.. Mujhe unse baat krte waqt bahut sharam aati h.. main nervous ho jati hu aur fir i become numb.. " I wishpered. My head bowed in shame for being such an introvert.
"Beta, shant.. Main samjh sakti hu beta.. " Aunt lifted up my chin to look at her. "Par Wo tumhara husband hone wala h uske samne sharmane ki jarurat nhi hai, Sameer would expect uh to be free and express ur emotions. Mujhe pta hai yeh bahut mushkil hone wala hai par kya kr skate h yehi zindagi hai! Beta, Kuch asan nhi hota, Kuch paane ke liye kuch chalane ke liye efforts dalna sabse jaruri hota h. Toh agar tum sach me chahti ho tumhari aur Sameer ki yeh shadi bani rhe aur dono ek dusre ke sath khush rho to tumhe sharmana chhodke usse express krna hoga".
"Main puri koshish krungi, Khala" I promised. But I wasn't sure if I'd be able to keep up to my words. How could I not be shy in front of Sameer?? His personality intimidated me even though he was a cheerful person.
"You have to Nainu" Preeti tucked a hair curl behind my ear.
"Lastly, Tum is shadi ke bareme kya sochti ho Naina?? Aunt questioned. I was a little perplexed. I wounderd why aunt had asked me such a question.
Breathing in deeply, I answered confidently. " I always promised myself, Whomever I marry, My world will revovle around him. I'll be loyal wife and never disappoint my husband. I'll love him with all of me and nothing will be more important than him. Therefore, Marriage plays important role in my life, I know it's value. "
"Main bahut khush hu sameer tumse shadi kr rha h" Aunt smiled and kissed her forehead. I felt good that she considered me eligible to be sameer's wife. "Aram kro.. Main aur naina baki sab arrangments dekhte h" Aunt said and then walked out with my sister.
In few hours, My life was going to change forever. A new person was going be added in it. I was going to be someone's wife. I was going to be Mrs. Naina Sameer Maheshwari.
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I sat on a stool before the dressing table as I gazed my reflection in mirror. Aunt has even me an olive green and gold lehenga to wear for my nikkah. An olive green net veil was placed on top of my head. Long gold earrings hung in my ears. A golden olive green choker was fitted in my neck as well as lengthly gold necklace. Golden bracklets chained to the rings in fingers were hooked around my wrist. Preeti had done my makeup braided hairstyle. She had pinned a gold maang tika in my hair painted my lips and nails dark red. As I started my reflection longer, I realized I have never looked this beautiful ever. Maybe this was how every bride felt on her wedding that she never looked so beautiful.
