Hi, I did not think I would write another part but here we are now. I just felt like I could add more and It has been on my mind.
I have had a hard time recently and have been feeling depressed, my mental health is decreasing everyday, I honestly feel neglected, heartbroken, mentally abused, misunderstood, and honestly I feel like a misfit and a mistake. If I stop writing it might be because I did something I shouldn't have.
We recently got a new extension to our family and I'm always taking care of it. I have a lot of stress put on me and just need an outlet so I decided to write about it.
I want to feel loved and it is not provided in the household I'm in. The only thing I ask for is love and affection. Is that too much to ask for? Is it so bad to want to feel something? School is rough and my voice is shot. I have a huge part in a program and I have to scream and my rehearsals suck because of my voice. I just don't know anymore. My family fucking hates me. My partner probably hates me. My friends hate me or find me annoying, and I hate me.
Don't get me wrong, I love my family and friends but it feels like they don't love me. I just lost my best friend because of my feelings. My lover and another person are the only people who seem to care. I have tried to bottle everything up and hide behind a smile but that fake ass smile is beginning to fade. But it's fine! Nobody gives a shit anyway.
Author note: who the actual fuck reads this through? Anyway have a good day/night depending on where you are.
