How To Raise Like A Phoenix From The Ashes

A surprise

My first suspicion arose when my period was late for one day, then for another, then for a whole week. I didn't have the guts to go to a pharmacy so I asked my brother to buy a pregnancy test for me. And even before I did the test, I thought to myself: "No way that I am pregnant. There's probably a different reason why I didn't get my period."

In the next moment, I am peeing on my test, and within a few seconds I see two lines. Two lines? I can't believe it. I am sitting on the toilet and unbelievingly stare at my test. Well, yes, the withdrawal method might have not been my safest bet but it had worked before. I am totally overwhelmed.

I am telling my brother. I am telling my parents. I want to tell the father, too. But how? He lives 40 minutes away from me. But I am too impatient to wait any more minutes to tell him.

So I quickly write him a message: "I just did a pregnancy test because I didn't get my period. The test was positive." He just replied: "Are you serious?" "I am." We agreed to meet up the next day to talk in person. I did not have the faintest clue to what he will say. At that point of time, we just dated for a month.

It all started about 3 years ago. But back then we never became a couple even though I really wanted it. Back then, we spent about 3 months together dating. It started with Netflix and chill. The first time I ever saw him, was when he picked me up from my house. He didn't even made the effort to put jeans on. I, on the contrary, thought about my outfit for at least an hour. We talked for a little bit but not much. He asked me: "What kind if music do you like?" I said: "Mostly just rock music." "What kinds of bands?" "Linkin Park for example." So we listened to their music for a while. I was very nervous. My palms sweating and hoping that it would not get too awkward. My heart was racing. I thought to myself: "He's so handsome."

When we arrived half an hour later at his house, we went upstairs to his room. I wondered what would happen next. We started watching 'Money Heist'. He offered to massage me. I, of course, couldn't say no to that, suspecting that the massage would probably lead to more. I felt his warm hands on my skin, caressing me. At one point, he stopped it and drew me closer to him. Our bodies meeting each other, my heart drumming a hectic rhythm.