How to love? - Jungkook

Chapter 5

- Min Yoongi, I won't let you self sabotage yourself.- Ella pulled him up so that he could stand up.- you like her and she is such a nice girl, just get ready for your date.- Yoongi met a girl three weeks ago, he was swept away, she was pretty, intelligent and most of all she didn't see him as the famous guy he was.
- You are such a nice friend, giving up sex with me and even pushing me to meet her.- Yoongi said jokingly finally standing up.
- Well, we knew we couldn't fuck until we get older. At some point, we were going to meet other people.- Ella sighed standing up.- plus she is a good catch.
-Maybe I don't want a good catch, but just a good ass?- he teased her once more.
- oh, shut up. I know that underneath that jokester, there is a tiny Yoongi shaking up scare because you don't know if she likes you back.- Yoongi pushed her to the side and started getting ready.
-Anywho, how is everything with your boyfriend? Sorry, I mean JK.
-what boyfriend, asshole?- Ella asked with her last strip of patience.- we talk like two more sentences than usual, so yeah. But he invited me to go hiking today with Tae and Jin.-Ella said grinning.
- I highly doubt those two are going, bet they only said they would tag along so Jungkook dares to ask you.
- All I hear coming from you is Blah blah blah.- Ella walked outside his room and went to the kitchen to snack something. She took an apple and sit down in the kitchen bar.
- Should we go in 20 minutes?.- Jungkook asked walking inside the kitchen, Ella just nodded and jumped from where she was sitting.
- I am ready, so I'll wait for you and the guys on the couch.- She stretched a bit and let her weight fall over the couch.
-the guys canceled, so it will only be the two of us, is that okay?.- he asked somehow insecure.
- really? Did they cancel?- Ella asked pretending to be shocked but remembering what Yoongi said.- No problem, should we go?.-they took each a bottle of water and got on their way.

They were walking for an hour already and it seemed like they still needed one more to reach the hill. In the beginning, they were talking trivial funny stuff, but they reached a moment where they didn't know what to talk about.
- So, Yoongi is going on a date.- Ella mentally slapped her face for taking such a stupid topic out. Jungkook nodded and stay quiet.- She is very nice, I hope he doesn't ruin it.- he now looked back at her examining all of her expression.
- aren't you angry he is going out with another girl?.- he finally asked curiously.
- not really, he is my friend after all. We would never work as a couple and we know that, so I am really happy he found someone.- Ella was a bit of out-breath, because of the steepness of the way.
- can I ask you something?.-
- always- she grinned at him.-
- If you didn't have any feelings for him, how did you... No, why did you have something?
-well, It was comfortable, I've known him since I was a teenager, he had seen a lot and didn't judge me, I also used to be very insecure about my body, but he never mentioned anything. So it just feels comfortable doing it with him and somehow safe, no expectations, you know?.- he hummed in return and took some time to process everything she told him.
- what made you insecure about your body?.- he asked in disbelief, he had seen her only a few times with tight clothes, and her body was incredible.
-uhh you are going deep today Kookie.- she laughed looking at him, but he was seriously waiting for an answer-Seriously? I don't know, I was never directly bullied or something, but I guess the comments of people or society views about women hit me somehow.- she sighted feeling embarrassed.- I hate to admit this, not that I had problems with my weight, but what lead to it. I just constantly felt that it didn't matter how much sport or how less I ate, it wasn't enough, I was not perfect, and when I was finally thin enough to feel good, then I was too skinny for them.- she shook her head remembering those times, where she was so lost and unhappy.
- You know you are beautiful, right?- Jungkook asked stopping for a second to meet her eyes.
- you kinda have to say that, after what I told you, right?.- she kept on walking and started to laugh. Jungkook felt suddenly a need to prove himself.- I know I am as beautiful as everyone else is, I will never be a supermodel or something extravagant, but I have made peace with that.
- Then why do you always wear baggy clothes?
- I guess that is my style and maybe also want to cover the reason for people talking? Ugh, I don't know, it is a tricky question.- He had never had such a conversation with her, he somehow never give her the chance, it felt so good to be a person she trusted on.
- Thank you for telling me this.- Jk said sincerely wearing a big smile.
- I should thank you for hearing me.-
- And I know you think I say this out of compromise, but I think you are beautiful, not average and not like everyone else, you have your own level of beauty, unique.- she looked up front, feeling her cheeks getting warm,