Only if they knew

Part 1

~Tommy pov~
"Eryn knows he is the only one that know about me. About my dad, about all my problems" I thought to my self.

Eryn is Tommy's childhood friend, Tommy has a video in YouTube with him

I'm laying in my bed when I hear my phone ring, I gather up my strength to not sound all broken and answers my phone "Hey Tommy!" I heard a friendly voice say "HELLO ERYN" I said loudly as usual. "Wanna hang out today?" I thought for a while there was still a lot I didn't tell him "yeah sure when?" I answered "come to my place at 3" "okay bye"

I was going to meet him in 3 hours. I have to shower I thought to myself, I need to get the blood off of me, I went in the shower and felt the burning feeling when the water touched my scares, after the shower I put on some new clothes, covered up all my bruises with makeup and went to Eryn's place.

"Hey Tommy!" "Hi Eryn" I said trying to sound as happy as possible "did you take your pills today?" He asked, I started to panic
Lie he can't find out
Stupid voice leave my head, I was so nervous
"Ehhh yeah I did"
"Tommy?"
"What? I did take them"
"Don't lie Tommy, have you been taking them every morning?"
"YES IM NOT LYING!" Shit why did I scream at him?!
"Oh okay.." he said he sounded kinda sad but he can't find out anything more
"Sorry I didn't mean to scream at you"
but the fact is the last time I took my pills was when we met in real life last time.
"Tommy are you sure you are okay?"
"Yes"
"And how is it with your dad?"
"Better." I replied knowing was a lie but I don't want him to worry about me
"I think I have to go home my dad is calling me" that was a lie to but I just can't be with Eryn today I just keep lying to him and I hate it.
"Oh okay call me if you need anything"
"Okay"

When I got home I ran straight to the bathroom and looked in my secret spot and took out the blade
One cut for almost exposing the secret, one cut for lying, one cut for being useless
I saw the blood running down my wrists and I just kept going, why did I keep going?
I passed out when I woke up I realized what happened and went into my room, I had 23 missed calls from Wilbur and 6 new messages from dream "why did dream text me?" I thought out loud.

I called Wilbur to see what was going on
"Hey Wilbur why have you been calling me?"
"TOMMY? YOU ASK ME WHY I HAVE BEEN CALLING YOU?!!?"
"Yeah why? Did I do something wrong?"
"You haven't been online or answering you phone for 2 days!"
"Oh hehe" think fast think fast
"I was on a trip with my dad" I said
"Why didn't you say anything everyone was worried!"
"Sorry will I'm very tired right now I'm gonna get some sleep we can talk tomorrow okay?"
"Okay bye Tommy"

Words: 543 sorry for a short chapter