Daily Stupid Journal

ranking my exes and ex-crushes

okay

so here's the ex crushes
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j*nelle: 0 out of 10 (i'm using she/they for them because idk what they go by but she used to go by she/they)

- would have been good at roleplaying if she didn't stereotype all their characters

- bullied everyone

- manipulated all their friends and pushed people away

- hypocrite

- gaslight, gatekeep, (not) girlboss

- what's most likely is that i had a crush on their characters rather than her
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sherman: 5 out of 10

- ruined my mental health lol

- good taste in literature

- light academia

- nice hair ngl (dark brown and fluffy)

- might be an impersonator

- when the impostor is sus‼️

- most likely had a crush on someone else

- my friends' classmate

- introduced me to a fandom that really brought back a lot of nostalgia considering it was based on a book (kinda felt similar to being in the harry potter fandom)

- all they ever talked about was either their headcanons for potential fanfics, other people (not themself) and how everyone sucks, or how much they miss their crush

- listened to me confess to them and went "oh" and went offline XD

- "i understand i'm your fp, i'll never leave!" *leaves*

- most likely only my fp because they reminded me of my old friend + i was lonely

- if i met them today i most likely wouldn't have been friends with them

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bethany: 6 out of 10

- listened to me

- kind and understanding

- accommodating for my mental health

- made funny jokes

- technically hasn't cut me off, just busy with school or so she claims

- talking to her can be a bit weird ngl, like her vibes are just a bit off :')
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rosie: 4 out of 10

- way too old for me (she's turning 19 this year)

- very pretty though that's why i had a crush on her

- had been my friend since i was like 11

- likes things i am not particularly interested in

- got me into the hetalia fandom for a good 3 years

- ignored me for a whole year when the problems started and that's how i lost feelings

- i tried to rest my head on her shoulder once at a movie theater when i was 13(?) and she looked at me like i was some sort of zombie

- that's how i found out she was straight whoops

- never would have met anyone on this list if it weren't for her except my irl classmate

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caspian: 5.5/10

- i mean they tried

- they got some cool stories