Darkness, loneliness.
That's all I can describe the feeling as, something you don't want to happen. Something you would never want to wish the feeling on upon anyone. It's the feeling you have when you don't want to be around people but yet you want someone to come up to you and hung you, tell you it will all be okay.
That's how I feel right now. All in one.
The feeling may not be That strong but having a brother that hates you and having your other brother moving out Next week. It builds up. The feeling can get better but for me normally it gets worse. Until my friend tells me it's okay and to stop panicking, that he won't leave as well. He is my closest friend but he knows me better then my own family. He is amazing.
I am the only one in my family that have grown up in this part of Sweden. The rest of my family grew up in Australia even tho we are english? It doesn't make any sense to me either. Some people will say family means everything but sometimes it doesn't, it means that there is people you will have to deal with until your adult. Unfortunately for me I am only 13. Im the only one In my family that can speak Swedish properly so I can speak to the locals without my parents exactly understanding as they only know a few phrases to get them by.
Suddenly I get a message by my best friend saying she won't be able to meet up again today for the 10th day in a row. I mean at least she is messaging right? We live in the West part of Sweden, in a very Rich part of the City but not many people live around this area.
My best friend would never leave me would she? I mean we have been best friends for 7 months. Would she leave? Maybe? I hope not she means so much to me and I love her platonically. She could be my platonic partner? Nah maybe not I'm not in that Department but I do support it entirely! Wish I could say the same about my parents, we are Christian so my parents are very strongly against that.
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Idk where this book is going but this is just a little insight into her life, chapters will vary in since depending how I feel.
-Ash
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My story
RandomFlicker, a 13 year old girl. At 13 years old not too much could go wrong right? Well that's the complete opposite from Flick. She has to go through so much in a span of a few years, she doesn't cope with it well.
