The mysterious girl

chapter 2-first day

"eleanor Wait a second I'm sorry I did not think they would do it I did not know how mean they can be, forgive me please .." "How can I forgive you when all this time you've made me think that there is a real chance that there could be something between us .. you gave me hope that things will get better from now on.that my lonely days are over and people would stop insulting me, I've opened my heart to you, you're the first person who tried to talk to me since everyone found out about my past ... just go, go I do not want to see you or your friends ever again in my life"

I'm a little ahead of myself so I'll go back to the very beginning the moment I arrived at the New School ...

I got up in the morning after a sleepless night from the excitement today is the first day of a new school where I can start over my life and leave the past behind and all the terrible things I've done I'm not the same girl I've changed, I grew up and most importantly I learned from my mistakes.
I hear my mother prepares breakfast in the kitchan for me and my brother, my father is not here, he is on a mission from the army and I want him to see i'm doing better now, to wish me good luck in the new school I would want him to tell me he is proud of me and my change.
while thinking about the new year and what I want to change in it my little brother came to give me a hug and a kiss on the cheek since he was little kid I took care of him, and since he was little I taught him every morning to come to my room if I sleep to wake me if not to come give me a kiss and a hug, I do not believe he is already 8 years old and I hope he will forgive me for not being there for him last year, and maybe in the future he will realize that I was not in control of my life, he is so cute and it hurts me to think about how I hurt him last year and my mother i would never understand how she forgave me for what I caused her last year, all the shouting, all of the fighting she didn't diserved this and I admit it it was my fault because when she tried to show me that there is something else that affects me and this is not my fault instead of listening to her I was against her until I got to the bottom and I realized that I needed help and she was there to pick me up and take me to get help, my mom calls me to eat so I go downstairs give her a kiss and a hug and whisper my promise i made to her,after all the treatments I went through, she smiles and tells me to sit down and eat and that ben (my brother) is late.

"eleanor you sure you're ready to go to school? Because if not, I can now make a U-turn and go home" "Mom believe me if I would not I would not want to leave the house" "I'm serious eleanor if the middle of the day you feel you can not just call me I'll come for you I do not want anything happen to you again ... I love you and I can't watch you suffer again and know that I can not do anything " "Mom, I love you too, and I regret every morning for what I did and The pain I caused you and that was my fault I do not know if you ever be able to forgive me because I can not forgive myself for what I did to you, "I say, a tear drops while images from last year pass through my head, my mother wipes my tears and says,"eleanor I forgave you a long time ago because I knew it was not your fault what happened because of the situation you were in it, and I also know that now you do not even in the same place you return to be the girl that I know the girl I brought into this world, the girl that since the first time I held her I knew she would be fabulous girl in every way, that's the girl that is in front of me now I'm proud of you and the change you've been through" I huged my mom and got out of the car.
as soon as i go toward the gate i was looking at the note i had written my promise on.

I'm walking to the building and I realize that I was different from everyone, they all looked smiling, open, talking, while I walked awkwardly, unsure of myself or how anyone would want to connect to me and if so who assures me that I will not go back to my old self from which I am trying to run away from.

Since I had the change i've drove away from the people that were with me during the difficult times. i blocked them at all my social network, My greatest fear is that they will find a way to get me and bring me back to that place where I felt on top of the world and at the same time at the bottom of the tube.

I went into the building of a school and searched my locker where I can put in it my books. Locker number 202, I like that number somehow and I decided it would be my lucky number or rather the sum of the digits of that number is 4.

"Hello new neighbor," I heared to my right,I turned my head and saw someone looking at me and smimling to me,"hello my name is eleanor lynn whats yours"i interduce myself "my name is kim marshel,you must be new here, right?" "i am,today is my first day here""wow you are so beautiful,did anyone told you that before?" "no.." i say awkwerdly "no,no,no i'm not hiting on you relax,its just that you are really beautiful and nice which is so different from all the beautiful girl i know"thank you,you are so sweet i bet everybody here loves you" "no they prefer the beautiful girls" "but you are beautiful too" "thank you,if you ever need help come to me and i'll help you" "thank,do you know where spanish class is?" "stright ahead from here third door on the right" "thank you""you better hurry up class is about to start" "ok thank for all the help and the warm welcome" "no problem" as soon as she finshed the sentence i run to class hoping to make it before the teacher show up.
i take a sit in the last row on the left corner, while waiting for the teacher to come i'm writing in my notebook my favorite sentence "the only person you should be better than is the person you were yestarday" suddenly i hear someone read out loud my sentence..