Love is a difficult Emotion. It is hard to define. Some might say Love is like Family, then there are People that say love is friendship. But of coure we cant Forget the ones that say "Love is happines" I think that loving someone means that you would stay by their side no matter how bad they hurt you. Love is an Emotion that some can easy get, while People like me have to fight for it. When to People love eachother truthfully. They will have to show it. If not they might make the other Person think ist a lie. There are People out there that Play with the People that love them. They act like they love when its in reality just a cruel joke. Those People are real traitors. They act like they love you, they act like they care and some day they will just pack up and leave like Nothing has ever happened. I am only 14 and know mucg more About what love is than most of the adults that i have met. I know i shouldnt be Talking About this stuff or even know aabout it but my life is Pretty fucked up sometimes. I dont know how many People pretended to love me and then just left but there are many. Like the Story of Boy X. He is a real Person and i am still Fighting to get him back but he is one of These traitors. I have cried and cried and cried to get him back although everything was to late. I have been Fighting for About 8 months now. We were best Friends. In the first week of School my teacher that i honestly really like sat us next to eachother wich fixed a lot and we started having contact again. After two motnhs he started to talk behind my back. He started to be a pain in my ass a lot and i couldnt ignore it for any longer. I finally told him what i felt and he apologized. Then we were best Friends again. We hung out everyday. We hugged when we saw eachother and when i left. I almost slept at his place once but his mom said no. I was so happy to have him but then his old friend told him to stop having contact with me so he really did. I got to agree that he wasnt the nicest. He controlled me and manipulated me. He broke my mental Health and he knew it. He didnt give a shit About how I felt but I had to be there forr him. I tried to comfort him while he cried. I visited him when he was sick and bought him candy and Energy Drinks. That was the Love i was giving him. I Loved him more than i loved myself at that Point. He really destroyed me. He kept on saying Things like: "You are never gonna get a boyfriend and you dont even know how it is to loose the ones you loved. I hope you suffer because the reason that I am doing bad is you! You made her breakup with me! Now i am gonna hurt you like she hurt me! You never even cared. You were never scared to loose me! What is wrong with you, you weird fagg*t" That really broke my heart into pieces because I put so so much into that friendship and he replaced me. All he cared About was him and his stupid Little douchbag Friends. I stopped hanging out with my other Friends and started to lock myself in my room. The only Thing that mattered to me was my cat. He was Always by my side. Till this day i dont understand Why i still want him back but i know that it wont happen. I really cant explain my Feelings towards him. He said that I used him. I really never knew somebody like him. I would have rather lost someone than use someone. I see my refection in his eyes and think: "Why couldnt i Keep him close for any longer?"
Falling inlove is easy. Falling out of love is just hurtful.
