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Ok just a little backstory what happened before the pics I'm about to show you.

I really like this girl and I'll call her Emi (Not close to her real name at all). And I told her how I felt but she avoided it and said that it was so sweet. I was a little heartbroken when she pretty much avoided on giving me an answer but I'm patient enough so I just let it be. Then yesterday I asked her to be my valentine which she asked what it means to be someone's valentine. So I gave her the answer.

And she avoided my question once again. So I was talking to my friend that's close friends with Emi. She said I should just give up and give her space. Which I thought I was giving her space. Apparently Emi wasn't in the right mind rn. She said she's been stress and that broke my heart again.

The girl I love was stress and just wasn't feeling good entirely. Her friends and school have emailed her about Valentine's day and she didn't get it.

She was glad I understood her and respected her. Bro I just want to hug her. She doesn't deserve this.

Ok I'll show you the pics now

And that's pretty much it so far. Hope everything goes good. The emotions for me has been going on a rollercoaster. I hope nothing goes wrong. This is the first time I've ever felt this way towards someone and it makes me nervous.

I don't wanna fuck things up. I'm trying to understand human emotions rn. Found out I might have Alexithymia which is basically a person who can't comprehend their own and other ppl's emotions. They don't have the greatest speaking skills and have troubles with socializing in general. Which is pretty much how I feel. It's not a mental disorder or anything though it's connected with depression, anxiety, autism, etc.

I'm not sure I have it exactly but it's close. I probably have to talk to my parents about it to get help

Btw I am going to take this chapter down tomorrow in case my crush has wattpad and sees it