Multiple characters x reader

My feelings described

Hi sorry I haven't updated but yea back at it ig

I'm suffocating my chest is begging to tighten as I gays for air I'm drowning in my own tears engulfed by a deep emptiness , I have been robbed of the once thug I loved leaving me to have no purpose and year I still carry on going no matter what hardships I'm faced with because it would be pathetic to take the easy way out right ...
Each day I grow more tired and unmotivated it is as if my body my mind everything about me is just there not actually living anymore no matter what I try I find no escape from myself and it becomes to much to live with . Because for this I want to finally let go from this cliff I have been holding onto for so long as I no longer crave emotion or love I should  let myself fall into the arms of death feeling at ease once at for all .I don't have anything left nothing to  hold onto not even the slightest sting of hope lingers in my heart anymore so why won't I let myself go I guess I shall have to find out by myself which means I just carry on no matter what

THIS IS SO CRAP IM SORRY IM JUST TIRED